6/28/2009
♥ Keeper
I wanna love,
I wanna leave.
I want you to love me,
I want you to leave me.
I want to stand where I can see,
I'm watching you love me,
And I'm watching you leave me now.
I wanna know if i could be,
Someone to turn to,
That could never hurt you.
But i know what you think of me,
You had a breakthrough,
And now i'm just bad news for you.
I wish i could be,
Somebody else.
I wish i could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
I never gave you anything.
If I could give you anything,
Then I would tell you everything.
I should've told you everything.
I wanna leave.
I want you to love me,
I want you to leave me.
I want to stand where I can see,
I'm watching you love me,
And I'm watching you leave me now.
I wanna know if i could be,
Someone to turn to,
That could never hurt you.
But i know what you think of me,
You had a breakthrough,
And now i'm just bad news for you.
I wish i could be,
Somebody else.
I wish i could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
I never gave you anything.
If I could give you anything,
Then I would tell you everything.
I should've told you everything.
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♥ Meanings Of Kisses
Kiss on the hand - I adore you.
Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.
Kiss on the chin - You are cute!
Kiss on the neck - I want you.
Kiss on the lips - I love you.
Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.
Kiss anywhere else - You're the best.
Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.
Kiss on the chin - You are cute!
Kiss on the neck - I want you.
Kiss on the lips - I love you.
Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.
Kiss anywhere else - You're the best.
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♥ Feb 13th little conversation that I remember. *Part 1*
"You're doing it again," she mummered.
"What?"
"Dazzling me," she admitted, meeting my eyes warily.
"Oh." Hmm. I wasn't quite sure what to do about that. Nor was I sure I didn't want to dazzle her. I was still thrilled I could.
"What?"
"Dazzling me," she admitted, meeting my eyes warily.
"Oh." Hmm. I wasn't quite sure what to do about that. Nor was I sure I didn't want to dazzle her. I was still thrilled I could.
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♥ Midnight Feb 13th when she was asleep
"Robert," she mumbled softly.
She was dreaming of me.
Could a dead, frozen heart beat again? If felt like mine was about to.
"Stay," she sighed. "Don't go. Please...don't go."
She was dreaming of me, and it wasn't even a nightmare. she wanted me to stay with her, there in her dream.
I struggled to find words to name the feelings that flooded through me, but I had no words trong enough to hold them. For a long moment, I drowned in them.
When I surfaced, I was not the same man I had been.
My life was an unending, unchanging midnight. It must, by necessity, always be midnight for me. So how was it possible that the sun was rising now, right in the middle of my midnight?
She was dreaming of me.
Could a dead, frozen heart beat again? If felt like mine was about to.
"Stay," she sighed. "Don't go. Please...don't go."
She was dreaming of me, and it wasn't even a nightmare. she wanted me to stay with her, there in her dream.
I struggled to find words to name the feelings that flooded through me, but I had no words trong enough to hold them. For a long moment, I drowned in them.
When I surfaced, I was not the same man I had been.
My life was an unending, unchanging midnight. It must, by necessity, always be midnight for me. So how was it possible that the sun was rising now, right in the middle of my midnight?
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♥ Embarrased moment
"I was wondering if, a week from Saturday..."I watched the shock cross her face, and choked back another laugh. "You know, the day of the spring dance-"
She cut me off, finally returning her eyes to mine. "Are you trying to be funny?"
Yes. "Will you let me finish?" I was fucking embarrasing that moment but I keep on doing the talk.
Even tough I blushed.
She cut me off, finally returning her eyes to mine. "Are you trying to be funny?"
Yes. "Will you let me finish?" I was fucking embarrasing that moment but I keep on doing the talk.
Even tough I blushed.
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♥ A few moree Feb 13th
"Do I dazzle you?" I voiced my curiousity impulsively, and then the words were out, and it was too late to recall them.
But before I had time to too deeply regret speaking the words aloud she answered, "Frequently." And her cheeks took on a faint pink glow.
I dazzled her.
My silent heart swelled with hope more intense than I could ever remember having felt before.
But before I had time to too deeply regret speaking the words aloud she answered, "Frequently." And her cheeks took on a faint pink glow.
I dazzled her.
My silent heart swelled with hope more intense than I could ever remember having felt before.
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♥ my fav song (Something - Cary brothers)
And you think you're alone as if I wasn't there
You’re losing your faith in me
It’s a car, it's a crash, it's a death, and you're scared
You just can't escape the scene
Hush now you're insane
Touch my skin, come back again
The sky is falling
It’s something you cannot fake
This something you will not shake
Just walk away before I look at you
It’s something only you can take
All your words, it's a lie to yourself, it's a home
There’s so much that you can't see
It’s a bomb that can kill everyone, and it blows
You can't even hear me scream
Hush now you're insane
Touch my skin, come back again
The sky is falling
It’s something you cannot fake
This something you will not shake
Just walk away before I look at you
It’s something only you can take
This is only feeling with no thought
Is this love?
What happened to the promises I bought?
Is this love?
It’s something you cannot fake
This something you will not shake
Just walk away before I look at you
It’s something only you can take
You’re losing your faith in me
It’s a car, it's a crash, it's a death, and you're scared
You just can't escape the scene
Hush now you're insane
Touch my skin, come back again
The sky is falling
It’s something you cannot fake
This something you will not shake
Just walk away before I look at you
It’s something only you can take
All your words, it's a lie to yourself, it's a home
There’s so much that you can't see
It’s a bomb that can kill everyone, and it blows
You can't even hear me scream
Hush now you're insane
Touch my skin, come back again
The sky is falling
It’s something you cannot fake
This something you will not shake
Just walk away before I look at you
It’s something only you can take
This is only feeling with no thought
Is this love?
What happened to the promises I bought?
Is this love?
It’s something you cannot fake
This something you will not shake
Just walk away before I look at you
It’s something only you can take
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♥ Complicated Love
I hate myself for loving you
But what am I supposed to do
I’ve never felt this way before
And when we meet I want you more
Love complicates the human brain
Especially when you must refrain
I cant go on this way too long
My feelings are so very strong
It hurts me more not seeing you
Because I always think of you
You live inside my fragile mind
Your such a wonder, such a bind
To see you
It hurts me so I want to cry
I try be strong, I try and try
But feelings now are way too high
You resonate my soul so much
I tremble at your every touch
The time we share I cherish dear
Losing you('s) my only fear
One day I pray, that we can be
Together for eternity
But if this loves not meant to be
Fate tell me now and set me free
But what am I supposed to do
I’ve never felt this way before
And when we meet I want you more
Love complicates the human brain
Especially when you must refrain
I cant go on this way too long
My feelings are so very strong
It hurts me more not seeing you
Because I always think of you
You live inside my fragile mind
Your such a wonder, such a bind
To see you
It hurts me so I want to cry
I try be strong, I try and try
But feelings now are way too high
You resonate my soul so much
I tremble at your every touch
The time we share I cherish dear
Losing you('s) my only fear
One day I pray, that we can be
Together for eternity
But if this loves not meant to be
Fate tell me now and set me free
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♥ Complicated Love / Suicide
I miss you from places I haven't been
It can’t be happening, is this all a dream?
You seemed so real, like I could reach you
Am I making this all a big deal?
You oust to hug me from farer place I could see you, do as you please not say as you do.
People are coming in and out of my life, ruling things I haven't yet discovered,
I’m crying inside, just like a lie that shouldn’t be covered.
Not yet seen or even heard, not fling free in the air like a small bird. I can't keep it inside anymore feeling used and things packed, kicked out of the door.
Mated lying to my face, I don't think I could trust, leaving me out I need to lay low or play free I must. But somehow I can’t find the real me deep inside my blood, killing myself inside, I don't think I should . So here I am in music writing this typical letter, listening to the keyboard and piano, I don't think I better.
It can’t be happening, is this all a dream?
You seemed so real, like I could reach you
Am I making this all a big deal?
You oust to hug me from farer place I could see you, do as you please not say as you do.
People are coming in and out of my life, ruling things I haven't yet discovered,
I’m crying inside, just like a lie that shouldn’t be covered.
Not yet seen or even heard, not fling free in the air like a small bird. I can't keep it inside anymore feeling used and things packed, kicked out of the door.
Mated lying to my face, I don't think I could trust, leaving me out I need to lay low or play free I must. But somehow I can’t find the real me deep inside my blood, killing myself inside, I don't think I should . So here I am in music writing this typical letter, listening to the keyboard and piano, I don't think I better.
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♥ from fb notes
for some reason, even after knowing everything, she still wanted me. Still wanted to crush her chest against mine and stroke my hair and just be fucking wonderful. She was still holding her heart out for me to take. It made me want to wretch that I couldn’t give her mine. Maybe she was hoping I could change with time, but even I wasn’t sure of it. I really fucking wished I could though. I wish I could love her in the way she deserves. Take her out in front of the world and tell them all about how she made me feel. But instead I’m just a fucking shell of a soul. Holding on to her with every fiber of my being, and praying to God that she would wait, and she wouldn’t be doing it all in vain
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♥ You Were The Last High
I was the first to have spoken
And I said just about
All of the things you shouldn't say
So maybe you loved me but now
Maybe you don't
And maybe you'll call me
Maybe you won't
And I said just about
All of the things you shouldn't say
So maybe you loved me but now
Maybe you don't
And maybe you'll call me
Maybe you won't
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6/27/2009
♥ This Love
This love wasn't supposed to exist.
It's completely wrong.
I got a girlfriend
and she got a boyfriend
but we be together
and plus this girl that I dated was her best friend too.
This is wrong.
So,wrong
I'm the cruelest person on earth.
I suck
It's completely wrong.
I got a girlfriend
and she got a boyfriend
but we be together
and plus this girl that I dated was her best friend too.
This is wrong.
So,wrong
I'm the cruelest person on earth.
I suck
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6/05/2009
♥ Feb 13 (Part 3)
"Greene?!"
I made a face when I knew it was her.
But she just walk out through my door when I opened it.
Akh , such a bitch.
"What are you doing?!"
I held her arms and tried to stop her to come in.
"I wanna take my cigarette , Rob."
I Rolled my eyes and ask
"Why don't you just buy a new one at the market??"
the dialog :
A:Because I don't want to.
R:Greene?!
A:What?!
R:(I let go her arms) But just taking cigarette!
A:(nods)
R:(I watch her taking her cigarette near the door)
A:Hey ,Elle!!
E:Hey Greene! (Smile) What are you doing here?
A:Taking my cigarette hun . (Smile)
E:Oh okay.
A:Btw, Elle you want to join our party ?
R:(I was thinking 'What?! Fuck this girl! Does she wanna ruin our moments?! Okay that's it!!')
E:Umm..
R:THAT'S IT GREENE! GET OUT I KNOW YOU WANT TO KIDNAP HER!
A:What?!
E:Okay , you know the answer Ash , I can't. my dazzling BF , don't like me to.
A:Okay honey , It's fine . He's a weird-o. Just be careful okay?
E:(nods)
A:Good. (kiss Elle cheek) bye sweetie! See you when I see you , love!
E:Yeah , bye. (smile)
R:(I looked Ash , with my annoyed face) GET OUT NOW!
A:Ok,weird-0! [I hate her when she said that!]
^So I closed the door , walk to the bed and crawl in to Sarah^
R:Elle.......
E:(She looked at me weirdly) What's up Rob?
R:I love youu .
E:I know, Ed-WARD Cullen.
R:Edward ? (laugh). (Make my face very close to her.) honey-honey.
E:What .. (step back a little) Hey! Don't do that too much! It's making me sick.
R:Really? I thought it'll dazzled you.
E:Dazzled me ? (Laugh) that's an of course. But , please.
R:Okay , sweetheart. (kiss Elle's cheek)
E:What time is it?
R:Idk, my watch is in the bathroom, my cell is.. on the couch.So,I have no idea,love.
E:Where's my cell?
R:I guess, it's with Lautner.
E:Lautner? Oh , okay.
R:(grab the remote beside me) What do you want to watch love?
E:None.
R:None? Really?
E:I don't want to spend my times here just to watch tv.
R:Agree,love. (I turn my body to herself and looked at her face and then Rub her cheek)
E:(Shiver)(Blush)
R:(I stopped and got off my hand off her face) What's up sweetheart?
E:(Breathless voice) No. No.
R:Hun?
E:(her face's so red like a blood) (speechless)
R:Love?
E:What? (gulp)
R:Breathe.
E:(nods) I'll try
R:(Smiled) (kiss her forehead)
E:Oh no Rob please, don't make me faint.
R:(smile) What's up Love? You look cute ,(laugh)
E:Cute?I'm breathless here.
R:Why?
E:I guess you know why , .
R:(Laugh)
I made a face when I knew it was her.
But she just walk out through my door when I opened it.
Akh , such a bitch.
"What are you doing?!"
I held her arms and tried to stop her to come in.
"I wanna take my cigarette , Rob."
I Rolled my eyes and ask
"Why don't you just buy a new one at the market??"
the dialog :
A:Because I don't want to.
R:Greene?!
A:What?!
R:(I let go her arms) But just taking cigarette!
A:(nods)
R:(I watch her taking her cigarette near the door)
A:Hey ,Elle!!
E:Hey Greene! (Smile) What are you doing here?
A:Taking my cigarette hun . (Smile)
E:Oh okay.
A:Btw, Elle you want to join our party ?
R:(I was thinking 'What?! Fuck this girl! Does she wanna ruin our moments?! Okay that's it!!')
E:Umm..
R:THAT'S IT GREENE! GET OUT I KNOW YOU WANT TO KIDNAP HER!
A:What?!
E:Okay , you know the answer Ash , I can't. my dazzling BF , don't like me to.
A:Okay honey , It's fine . He's a weird-o. Just be careful okay?
E:(nods)
A:Good. (kiss Elle cheek) bye sweetie! See you when I see you , love!
E:Yeah , bye. (smile)
R:(I looked Ash , with my annoyed face) GET OUT NOW!
A:Ok,weird-0! [I hate her when she said that!]
^So I closed the door , walk to the bed and crawl in to Sarah^
R:Elle.......
E:(She looked at me weirdly) What's up Rob?
R:I love youu .
E:I know, Ed-WARD Cullen.
R:Edward ? (laugh). (Make my face very close to her.) honey-honey.
E:What .. (step back a little) Hey! Don't do that too much! It's making me sick.
R:Really? I thought it'll dazzled you.
E:Dazzled me ? (Laugh) that's an of course. But , please.
R:Okay , sweetheart. (kiss Elle's cheek)
E:What time is it?
R:Idk, my watch is in the bathroom, my cell is.. on the couch.So,I have no idea,love.
E:Where's my cell?
R:I guess, it's with Lautner.
E:Lautner? Oh , okay.
R:(grab the remote beside me) What do you want to watch love?
E:None.
R:None? Really?
E:I don't want to spend my times here just to watch tv.
R:Agree,love. (I turn my body to herself and looked at her face and then Rub her cheek)
E:(Shiver)(Blush)
R:(I stopped and got off my hand off her face) What's up sweetheart?
E:(Breathless voice) No. No.
R:Hun?
E:(her face's so red like a blood) (speechless)
R:Love?
E:What? (gulp)
R:Breathe.
E:(nods) I'll try
R:(Smiled) (kiss her forehead)
E:Oh no Rob please, don't make me faint.
R:(smile) What's up Love? You look cute ,(laugh)
E:Cute?I'm breathless here.
R:Why?
E:I guess you know why , .
R:(Laugh)
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6/04/2009
♥ Missing You
Flashbacks,
memories of last year
still fresh in my mind.
Words
of yesterday and today,
still stinging my battered heart.
Sleepless nights,
and numbed filled actions,
still harder as days pass.
Learning to love again,
trying to move on,
still longing,
still needing you...
memories of last year
still fresh in my mind.
Words
of yesterday and today,
still stinging my battered heart.
Sleepless nights,
and numbed filled actions,
still harder as days pass.
Learning to love again,
trying to move on,
still longing,
still needing you...
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♥ Feb 13th (Part 2)
I hugged pretty tight this time.
"Hush , baby don't cry , let's get through this night overcome cause all that you are is beautiful child, but they'll never know."
I could feel her breath , hushing to my chest
So, I let go of her slowly
and put my nose on her nose.
"Hey , cute little girl. Stop it , lets enjoy our times."
I smiled with her favorite smile of mine
then she smiled my favorite my smile of her.
"haha. you dazzled me,Rob"
I bited my bottom lips and laugh
"I dazzled you ? hahaha. I did it then."
She laughed cutely
I looked at her face more closely.
It's blurry now.
I'm too close from her face.
I whispered to her
"Wanna try the kiss like Edward and Bella?"
She nodded with her cute smile
I smiled brightly.
let me just do the conversation thing
(It's easier)
R:Okay,you be Bella, I be Edward
E:(Laugh)
R:Hey, why you laughed?
E:Well , I laughed because , Of course I be Bella. I mean you wanna be bella and then I be the Edward??
R:(I blushed this time,I felt embarrased) Yeah., (Laugh) Sorry
E:You don't need to say sorry, I've forgive you.
R:(I smiled) Okay , so now?
E:Okay
R;Remember the scene?
E: Totally
R: (Laugh) Okay , do you remember the Bella's line.
E:A little
R:Oh,yeah only me. So,I'll do the Edward's later and we just do it like absolutely the scene,okay?
E:Okay.
R:Okay,it's start from . 3. 2 . 1 .(Start)
E:How did you get here?
R:From the window
E:Do you do that a lot?
R:Just a couple of months ago.,
E:Oh, okay .
R:I like watching you sleeping , it's fascinating.
E:So,what are you doing here?
R:Well I just want to try one thing
E:Ok
R:Don't move.Just stay at where you are.
E:...
R:Just stay
We start doing the ExB kiss scene
But this is a lot of different
when we Sarah (Bella) already put her arms around my neck
and laying on the bed.
I should have thrown myself through the walls
Or just stop it
But I couldn't at all
It's just like she just ate a magnet so , I couldn't done that kiss.
I licked her neck and kiss it.
she kept putting her arms around my neck
She still don't want to let me go
I understand why she won't let me go,course
She might be thinks this the time when we could do everything
So she won't just waste it like that,
My lips is in her mouth again now.
But now I'm laying on my bed and not above her anymore.
I'm next to her now
We still kissing.
She still want me, and also do I.
We still wanting each other.
I pulled her left leg and put it to my legs.
Just to make her more closer
Her hands is in my hair now.
She still holding me to not end it.
But then suddenly we heard a knocking voice.
She finally stop the kiss and let me go
"Who's that?!" She asked me with her breathless voice.
I look the door and get up
"I'll check."
"Hush , baby don't cry , let's get through this night overcome cause all that you are is beautiful child, but they'll never know."
I could feel her breath , hushing to my chest
So, I let go of her slowly
and put my nose on her nose.
"Hey , cute little girl. Stop it , lets enjoy our times."
I smiled with her favorite smile of mine
then she smiled my favorite my smile of her.
"haha. you dazzled me,Rob"
I bited my bottom lips and laugh
"I dazzled you ? hahaha. I did it then."
She laughed cutely
I looked at her face more closely.
It's blurry now.
I'm too close from her face.
I whispered to her
"Wanna try the kiss like Edward and Bella?"
She nodded with her cute smile
I smiled brightly.
let me just do the conversation thing
(It's easier)
R:Okay,you be Bella, I be Edward
E:(Laugh)
R:Hey, why you laughed?
E:Well , I laughed because , Of course I be Bella. I mean you wanna be bella and then I be the Edward??
R:(I blushed this time,I felt embarrased) Yeah., (Laugh) Sorry
E:You don't need to say sorry, I've forgive you.
R:(I smiled) Okay , so now?
E:Okay
R;Remember the scene?
E: Totally
R: (Laugh) Okay , do you remember the Bella's line.
E:A little
R:Oh,yeah only me. So,I'll do the Edward's later and we just do it like absolutely the scene,okay?
E:Okay.
R:Okay,it's start from . 3. 2 . 1 .(Start)
E:How did you get here?
R:From the window
E:Do you do that a lot?
R:Just a couple of months ago.,
E:Oh, okay .
R:I like watching you sleeping , it's fascinating.
E:So,what are you doing here?
R:Well I just want to try one thing
E:Ok
R:Don't move.Just stay at where you are.
E:...
R:Just stay
We start doing the ExB kiss scene
But this is a lot of different
when we Sarah (Bella) already put her arms around my neck
and laying on the bed.
I should have thrown myself through the walls
Or just stop it
But I couldn't at all
It's just like she just ate a magnet so , I couldn't done that kiss.
I licked her neck and kiss it.
she kept putting her arms around my neck
She still don't want to let me go
I understand why she won't let me go,course
She might be thinks this the time when we could do everything
So she won't just waste it like that,
My lips is in her mouth again now.
But now I'm laying on my bed and not above her anymore.
I'm next to her now
We still kissing.
She still want me, and also do I.
We still wanting each other.
I pulled her left leg and put it to my legs.
Just to make her more closer
Her hands is in my hair now.
She still holding me to not end it.
But then suddenly we heard a knocking voice.
She finally stop the kiss and let me go
"Who's that?!" She asked me with her breathless voice.
I look the door and get up
"I'll check."
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6/03/2009
♥ Feb 13th
AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS DAY!
THIS DAY!
WAS A VERY SPECIAL DAY!
WAS A VERY PRECIOUS!
UNFORGETABLE!
MEMORABLE!
LOVELY!
WONDERFUL!
AWESOME!
FUN!
HOT!
ROMANTIC!
COOLEST!!
DAY EVA!
I SLEPT WITH ELLE
KISS ELLE
HX WITH ELLE!*NO*
HUG ELLE
SAVE ELLE
I PROBABLY ENOUGH!
VERY ENOUGH FOR THIS SHIT!
AH!
GUYS YOU KNOW WHAT
IN 10 PM I KISSED ELLE LIPS 16 MINS!!!!!
maybe
IT WAS SOO FUCKING FUN!
WELL ELLE VERY
BREATHLESS THAT TIME
WE KISS EACH OTHER TIL I DID FELL FROM THE BED
WE ALMOST OPENING OUR CLOTHES!!
nooo
kidding
we're not almsot opening clothes .
lol
i mean
that's very impossible!
So let's see
I wanna tell you ALL!
that
gah Sarah was soo cute when sleeping
I cant 4get it
I really cannot
4get it at all
we bought soo much chocolate that day
we bought that chocolate for ..
Claire bear..
yea 4 her
I bought 30 chocolate but have eaten by those disgusting ants!
LoL
(sorry rach u have to blame them!)
well so we bought chocolate 4 her
Sarah walked by herself
looking 4 chocolate same as me
then we meet at the cashier place
I pay 4 it
and .. Im holding her hand
and then she lean in my arms lol
it's in pim
soo many people looking and stare at us
but im just dont care at it
and instead of kissing her hair when they see us
LoL
So then
We go 2 starbucks
drink something ..
and sitting there
We sat on the sofa
So sarah could lean in my arms
then I take my laptop on my bag and turn it on
So I could online
we talk about our life
I still remember all
(well not all just the memorable one)
E: Rob .
R: Yes .
E: Why you still want me to be as your gf? I mean you've look at me face to face. Live! and I wasnt that Pretty and Hot like those girls . But you still want me .
R: (laugh) Sweetheart (hold sarah's face) You're funny .
E: Nee? Why? (looking me soo confusely)
R: I mean . Do you really have any idea how important you are to me? Any concept at all of how much I love you?
E: (shaking her head)
R: (Laugh) (then I kissed Sarah lips) Stupid . I love you more than I love myself Sarah.
E: Rob . you know what . I still cant believe that you're YOU now . Maybe you're just Robert as disguise
R: Ok , then if you haven't believe I am Robert . Open my glasses now and check what's different..
E: WHAT? R U CRAZY?!
R: Well you said you dont believe me. So open it! Or u want me 2 open it by myself??
E: No..!!! Please Robert!!!!!!! Im begging you ..
R: (laugh) You're such a cute gf I ever had! (kissing)
LOL
that's the only conversation that I remember in Starbucks
LOL
The very unforgetable one
so then after a minute Sarah was kinda bored and want it to walk around
and soo we went to pim 2 just walking around but then I saw a guitar store
and then I asked her "Sarah , Can you play guitar?"
"A little, Why?"
"Well , If I bought you a guitar . Do you'll love it?"
"Course!! I mean Duh?!"
her eyes was sparkling like she do wanted it soo much
So then I thought I wanna buy a guitar 4 sarah 4 her valentine's gift
but it's a suprise
SO then I just called Nikki too drive sarah back 2 her home and
We'll pick her up later
She did kinda confuse why do we drive her 2 her house and leave her
just like that
She did mad
her eyes was full of water
n yes she did wanna cry lol
It hurts!
4 me
but I have too.
Even it's hard
but she'll suprised about it later
thenn
it's been 2 hours since I left her
she must be soo stressful about this
LOL
(sorry sweetheart)
then I pick her up around 8.30pm
and thank God there's no anyone in the house!
IM VERY GLAD OF THAT!
lol
and so then
I called Sarah cell and told her to get down
and go 2 my car
the she goes down
and her eyes was red
I bet she did Cry!LOL
me and nikki was just smiling soo big
and then
When she wants to get in to car
I stopped her and say
"wait b4 you get in there's something"
then sarah just be quiet and curious
and I just smile
"Nikki . Show her"
then Nikki took the guitar from the bagage
and gave it to me then I said
"Hey , Lovely . This is for you . Im sorry because you have to wait in your house and .. Im sorry to left you"
and then she just gasp and cover her mouth
then HUG ME!
"Rob, Robert .. Are , Are You Cra..Cra..Crazy???"
then I laugh
"Im sure You are"
then she just too shock
and nikki said
"Hey sarah . This is why we put you here!"
but sarah just dont answer Nikki and still suprised about that guitar
and so I told her
"Let's just try this later, My love"
then she just smile like an sweet angel
LoL
and then
I get into the car and sarah sit on my knees
n Nikki drive .
and you know what
my fear of the car was probably gone when im with her
SO I dont wear a sit belts lol
and from time to time she slept in my chest
til we arrive
(She sleep like an angel)
then I wouldnt woke her up
I just carry her to the room
OUR ROOM!
LoL
and then I put her in the bed
and then I just open my jacket , glasses , beanie and everything that was not comfortable!
and then I get into the blanket and rub her face . her hair and then kiss her cheeks
and forehead
I cant stop staring at her face that time
.
.
.
I really dont want to miss a thing
then 5 mins later
or 15 mins later
she woke up and look at my face
and I said "Hello , sweetheart .Did you have a nice dream?"
then she just stare at me weirdly
"Robert?where am I?"
"In the room .Just sleep sweety"
"No!I want to have fun in here, I want to see the other guys"
"Ok, Sweetheart"
and then I changed my mind and told her
"Can we just go there later?, I need a time 2 be with you"
then she just slammed herself into the bed and lay in my arms
then I said "Thank you"
and then I touched her lips that was soft
and then pulled her lips to mine
and yes
WE KISS!
then she pulled away hardly
"Rob?!"
her face was soo red like a tomato
because she couldnt breathe at all
then I just get my face 2 be more closer to her
and said "Ok , I know you're breathless.But I just love your lips sweetheart.I mean I just touched you sweety and I .."
before I done saying that she already pull my lips against her
and chewing my mouth.
and pulled away softly a little
"I love you"
then I just keep swallowing her tongue , her lips her mouth ..
that tasted chocolate because she just eaten chosolate last time with me
LOL
then already 2 mins she pulled away a little sayin "Rob , I couldnt breathe."
with her almost crying voice
then I kiss her lips again and pulled off saying "Just scratch me , or pitch my shirt or anything to make you better"
then she kissed my lips and taste my mouth again
but she's scratching my knees hardly and it does hurt alot .
I screamed hard
and sarah pulled away saying "im sorry , but you said I have to do this"
then I smile and said "Keep going . Because this the only time where we could kiss.. and feel each other"
"but Robert ."
I kissed her lips and saying "Dont worry , I'll be ok."
then she just kissed my lips again and I kept screaming
because it does hurtful
then she pulled away hardly
"THAT'S IT ROBERT I CANT DO IT!"
then I just lay in the bed and stare at her ..
she was feeling so guilty,breathless and powerless
sitting beside me
then I just sat beside her
and put my arms around her neck
with my other hand rubbing her face
"Im okay . "
and I just open my pants and look at my knees while putting my arms around her neck
and there's a scar of it
it does painful
she sigh and said to me "Robert . Im really sorry."
then I put my jeans on again and smiled at her "Dont worry about this shit.. anyway this thing will make me could remember you either"
she keep feeling guilty about it
and stare at my knees even I already put my jeans on
then I told her again "It will be okay . this thing could heal by itself it's a scar!"
but her face still telling me that she is guilty very guilty 4 this .
then I decide to sing her a song
"Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me"
It's a You found me by the fray .
then she asked me"Why u sang me that song?"
"I.D.K It just sing in my head . So I sing it to you"
then I hold her hands
"Sweetheart . If im hurting now It doesnt matter anyway it proves that I'll sacrifes for you either .. But If you're hurting I swear I'll do everything to make it ok . even I have to die 4 it"
then I try to get up from the bed
and stand beside the bed
but it's fucking hurt
so I just fell to the bed
and then sarah come to me and said
"Robert?"
then I turn around and smile to sarah
and said
"Dont worry . Im ok"
then I grab my phone inside my pocket
and call Jack to come here because I probably hurting
so they come and knock the door
then sarah get off from the bed
and try to open the door
but I stopped her by saying
"Just stay here , sweetheart . I know you still feel nervous meeting does bastards , Just let me get it"
"But."
"No, but!!!Just stay!"
and I still try to stand up
even it does hurtful but
I have to open the door
and cover my hurt feeling to make sarah thought
that I am fine
So I walk ..
"FUCK IT , BITCH , DAMN , SHIT ! IT DOES FUCKNG HURT"I crumbled inside my heart
but I kept walking and opening the door
then when i opened the door
my friends seems shock because of my face
seems so pale
and dying
then when my friends look at me they face suddenly being weird
they step back actually
well I know they afraid
but not that much
then Jack asked
"R u Robert ?"
and i just whisper
"Come in!"
with my scary face
then they quickly come in
then ashley look at sarah and yell
"SARAHHHHH!!!!!!"
and hug her
"Finally !! We meet!!"
but I just standing here
closing the door
then Nikki go 2 me
"Rob , r u ok?"
then I just shook my head
then nikki asked again
"what happen?"
then I just call tom
"Tom!!"
then he come to me and I draggd him to the toilet and close it
then I just sit in the bathub
"FINALLY!"
I scream not hardly
just screamed
softly
then tom asked
"What happen?"
then I showed my legs ,
that was kinda had a scar and there's blood in it
then tom said
"Yo!Dude?! What's happening ? Is she a werewolves?!"
"Fuckey mouse! U such an Idiot! She's not a werewolves!she's a human!"
"then what's wrong with your leg?!"
"It's a long story pal. So can u just take an ache bandage or search it in this bathroom?!"
"Ay-ay captain!"
then he search it and found it
and my ache , wasnt soo hurt anymore .
it much better
then when I stand up .
it's ok .
the pain is fading .
then I go 2 sarah spot .
and sit beside her .
and says
"Hey ,, yaa . My love ."
and she just answer
"Hey"
Just a simple Hey .
Kinda a little bit offened about this .
because she seems dont care about my scar .
and forget it just like that
but , I know I told her .
Im alright but .
Ok .
It's fine .
My fault.
then she just touch my knees .
while talking to ashley and the others .
then when the others talk by themselves
she whispered to my ear saying
"Do that pain have gone , Rob?"
then I just smiled and kiss her cheek.
and say
"I thought you forget it . haha . Oh , well It's much better sweetheart ."
then she just blink to my eyes and continue talking with them .
and I just lean in her little shoulder .
and watch tv .
then . because im bored and the tv was suck either .
I took my ciggarette and smoking .
then she look at my ciggarette like she wanna try more.
then I gave my ciggarette to her lips
and she suck it .
and yea , then she smoke .
My angel turns to a bad girl when she suck it
My little girl grow!
yay!
lolololololol
then I just laughed
and she look at me weirdly ,
saying
"Why u laugh?!"
then I just smiled and said
"Nothing , just .. nothing ."
and when I wanna took my ciggarette she hold it
and dont want to return it to me
hahahaha
my angel turns into a bad girl
LOL
then I kissed her cheek .
saying
"You're cute , little girl"
then she smile
and ask
"Cute ? Fuck that cute."
and then she just finish the ciggarette
and done
she put it in the plastic of our food.
that has finished
ow, she is hot
then Jack give us a baileys .
she drink it too
I know that's ilegal
but .
It's fine .
she could try
but this time
it's a lot
until she's drunk
and you know what when she's drunk .
she fought with kstew
because that bitch wanna slammed her mobile
and when
I saw it I just kick kstew
and took the mobile and give it to sarah
because ksew is sucj=h a crazy
sarah didnt do anything
she wanna slammed her mobile
crazy bitch
then I grabbed her to go to the outside of the room
to the , pool
and sit at the side of the pool
share our stories there ..
E:Why you bring me here?
R:You're drunk.
E:So?
R:U need a fresh air to breathe
E:Ow, So if we drunk we have to go to the outside and breathe
R:Yes.
E:Ow, ok
R:So, let's share our stories .
E:Na, I dont wanna .
R:Why ?
E:I think I have told you all of my stories in the webcam .
R:Yea. You right .
E:(Laugh)
R:So , what now?
E:What about you sharing your stories?
R:Me? Oh well. there's nothing ,
E:Come on tell me about the twilight or the fans .
R:The fans . n' the twilight . ok . I'll do my best to remind it
E:Why you do your best?
R:Because Im blank with you here
E:Why?
R:You make me blank , . Really I dont know all I focus is your face
E:U do bullshits again , dont ya?
R:Why should I?I never did bullshits anyway .they're stink just like the name
E:You know why I always said it's a bullshit?
R:why?
E:Because your words are like knives , they peel my skins and pierce my soul.You're body will burn tonight, but your heart will still remains cold. And I will blame myself.
R:Why you should blame yourself?
E:Because , there's something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself , and smething in your voice makes my heart beat fast .
R:Do it beats now?
E:Soo hard .
R:Can I hear it?
E:No!
R:LOL(laugh)
E:(playing with the water)
R:.......................................................
I forgot what I said in the end
after that I teach sarah how to swim
She's so wet and me too
my pain is really hurting
but I dont care
I teaching my girl how to swim
I could forget my pain
that still lingers in my body
We kissed whille I was teaching her .
We didnt drawn .
because I keep swinging my foot .
and then she pulled away softly and saying
"I rather this kiss than last time"
and because she said so.
I kissed her again .
then ..
after that
I carry her to the nearest
seat in the pool side and
lay her there
then we lay there
together
and here's the conversation
E:Show me how you do that trick.
R:The one that makes you scream?
E:Yes.
R:Or the one that makes you laugh?
E:Both .
R:(I threw my arms around her neck)
E:Show me how you do it .
R:and ?
E:I promise that I'll run away with you
R:Ok, it' easy just .(Laugh) R u kidding me?!
E:Yea . haha .
R:Where did you got those words?
E:Idk , It's just crossed in my brain .So, I said it to u
R:(Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head and dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow)
E:Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you ?
R:I know that you love me . I know that you just cover those all by just being cruel to me.
E:You, soft and only . you
R:(I touch her hand)You,lost and lonely and strange as angels.
E:You're just like a dream . I dont even believe that this was real.
R:I know it's hard to believe that this was real . But it was happening.(I saw her freezing because of she just got out from the pool wet and the air was cold either then I kissed her forehead then she move more closer to me)Cold?
E:(nugging)
and then I carried her
to our room
and when we arrived in the room .
we saw soo many dead peoples .
LOL
Not real dead peoples.
they're just passed out .
and who opened the door is only one man who could stay alive
haha
Jackson . hehe
he wasnt drank too much beer
so he could stay alive .
and then I put her
in the bed .
and she just lay there .
while looking me moving those dead mans to their rooms
with Jackson .
after that .
The room's clean and then I jump to the bed and
lean closer to her
and smile
then she just touch my face
and said "You're real"
and I smile soo big .
and move my face more closer to hers .
"Of course."
then now our face was touching each other .
(let me just write it like a dialog because it's easier)
E:Look Im sorry for the way I acted.
R:It' ok , I still love you
E:I love you too.
R:I wanna love you forever.
E:I dont .
ER:(Laugh)
R:Ok . haha .
E:What time is it?
R: (I forgot what I said)
E:Ow , Ok .
R:I don't want this moment to ever end
E:Me too .
R:We need each other do we?
E:Yes.
R:Im not gonna let you go away from me.
E:Ok.
R:(kiss elle's lips)I Need You , like you are a star.
E:Im not a star . but you are.
R:Im a star in the fuck life . but you are a star in a wonderful life.
E:(slap my face)
R:Hey!
ER:(laugh)
R:You changed my live oh soo patiently And turned it into something good and real
E:I think you're the one that was like that to me
R:Why?
E:Because I feel just like I felt in all my dreams.
R:Really?
E:Yea.
R:Same as me then.
E:There are questions hard to answer to u
R:What are they?
E:Um , Why you love me?
R:only that?
E:Nope. There's more but u have to answer this 1st .
R:Ok , Um . Because I love your soul.that's soo kind , and you're my type .
E:Why you loving me like no other?
R:Because,blablabla(I forgot)
E:Why you have those perfect face?
R:Idk.
E:Now the very hard question.
R:Will u promise me that you'll be loving me for the rest of your existence?
E:What?!
R:Will you?
E:I supposed to ask you question!
R:(laugh)
E:Not you!(laugh)
R:Sorry (laugh)
E:Ok , now can I continue my question?
R:Yea (laugh)
E:I love your smile .
R:thank you
E:they're ow , so . Dazzling .
R:thanks
E:I love it
R:Do u still want to continue your question?
E:I think nope.
ER:(kissing)
I could remember this kissing things is 2 minutes
Elle was crying this time .
saying
"I would never ever wanna lose you"
and I just rubbed her face softly .
"Dont cry , because I wont let anyone have you . You are mine always ."
"I need you" she whispered softly .
and pull her lips again softly and let go softly
"I need you too ."
I kiss her sweet lips slowly and softly.
THIS DAY!
THIS DAY!
WAS A VERY SPECIAL DAY!
WAS A VERY PRECIOUS!
UNFORGETABLE!
MEMORABLE!
LOVELY!
WONDERFUL!
AWESOME!
FUN!
HOT!
ROMANTIC!
COOLEST!!
DAY EVA!
I SLEPT WITH ELLE
KISS ELLE
HX WITH ELLE!*NO*
HUG ELLE
SAVE ELLE
I PROBABLY ENOUGH!
VERY ENOUGH FOR THIS SHIT!
AH!
GUYS YOU KNOW WHAT
IN 10 PM I KISSED ELLE LIPS 16 MINS!!!!!
maybe
IT WAS SOO FUCKING FUN!
WELL ELLE VERY
BREATHLESS THAT TIME
WE KISS EACH OTHER TIL I DID FELL FROM THE BED
WE ALMOST OPENING OUR CLOTHES!!
nooo
kidding
we're not almsot opening clothes .
lol
i mean
that's very impossible!
So let's see
I wanna tell you ALL!
that
gah Sarah was soo cute when sleeping
I cant 4get it
I really cannot
4get it at all
we bought soo much chocolate that day
we bought that chocolate for ..
Claire bear..
yea 4 her
I bought 30 chocolate but have eaten by those disgusting ants!
LoL
(sorry rach u have to blame them!)
well so we bought chocolate 4 her
Sarah walked by herself
looking 4 chocolate same as me
then we meet at the cashier place
I pay 4 it
and .. Im holding her hand
and then she lean in my arms lol
it's in pim
soo many people looking and stare at us
but im just dont care at it
and instead of kissing her hair when they see us
LoL
So then
We go 2 starbucks
drink something ..
and sitting there
We sat on the sofa
So sarah could lean in my arms
then I take my laptop on my bag and turn it on
So I could online
we talk about our life
I still remember all
(well not all just the memorable one)
E: Rob .
R: Yes .
E: Why you still want me to be as your gf? I mean you've look at me face to face. Live! and I wasnt that Pretty and Hot like those girls . But you still want me .
R: (laugh) Sweetheart (hold sarah's face) You're funny .
E: Nee? Why? (looking me soo confusely)
R: I mean . Do you really have any idea how important you are to me? Any concept at all of how much I love you?
E: (shaking her head)
R: (Laugh) (then I kissed Sarah lips) Stupid . I love you more than I love myself Sarah.
E: Rob . you know what . I still cant believe that you're YOU now . Maybe you're just Robert as disguise
R: Ok , then if you haven't believe I am Robert . Open my glasses now and check what's different..
E: WHAT? R U CRAZY?!
R: Well you said you dont believe me. So open it! Or u want me 2 open it by myself??
E: No..!!! Please Robert!!!!!!! Im begging you ..
R: (laugh) You're such a cute gf I ever had! (kissing)
LOL
that's the only conversation that I remember in Starbucks
LOL
The very unforgetable one
so then after a minute Sarah was kinda bored and want it to walk around
and soo we went to pim 2 just walking around but then I saw a guitar store
and then I asked her "Sarah , Can you play guitar?"
"A little, Why?"
"Well , If I bought you a guitar . Do you'll love it?"
"Course!! I mean Duh?!"
her eyes was sparkling like she do wanted it soo much
So then I thought I wanna buy a guitar 4 sarah 4 her valentine's gift
but it's a suprise
SO then I just called Nikki too drive sarah back 2 her home and
We'll pick her up later
She did kinda confuse why do we drive her 2 her house and leave her
just like that
She did mad
her eyes was full of water
n yes she did wanna cry lol
It hurts!
4 me
but I have too.
Even it's hard
but she'll suprised about it later
thenn
it's been 2 hours since I left her
she must be soo stressful about this
LOL
(sorry sweetheart)
then I pick her up around 8.30pm
and thank God there's no anyone in the house!
IM VERY GLAD OF THAT!
lol
and so then
I called Sarah cell and told her to get down
and go 2 my car
the she goes down
and her eyes was red
I bet she did Cry!LOL
me and nikki was just smiling soo big
and then
When she wants to get in to car
I stopped her and say
"wait b4 you get in there's something"
then sarah just be quiet and curious
and I just smile
"Nikki . Show her"
then Nikki took the guitar from the bagage
and gave it to me then I said
"Hey , Lovely . This is for you . Im sorry because you have to wait in your house and .. Im sorry to left you"
and then she just gasp and cover her mouth
then HUG ME!
"Rob, Robert .. Are , Are You Cra..Cra..Crazy???"
then I laugh
"Im sure You are"
then she just too shock
and nikki said
"Hey sarah . This is why we put you here!"
but sarah just dont answer Nikki and still suprised about that guitar
and so I told her
"Let's just try this later, My love"
then she just smile like an sweet angel
LoL
and then
I get into the car and sarah sit on my knees
n Nikki drive .
and you know what
my fear of the car was probably gone when im with her
SO I dont wear a sit belts lol
and from time to time she slept in my chest
til we arrive
(She sleep like an angel)
then I wouldnt woke her up
I just carry her to the room
OUR ROOM!
LoL
and then I put her in the bed
and then I just open my jacket , glasses , beanie and everything that was not comfortable!
and then I get into the blanket and rub her face . her hair and then kiss her cheeks
and forehead
I cant stop staring at her face that time
.
.
.
I really dont want to miss a thing
then 5 mins later
or 15 mins later
she woke up and look at my face
and I said "Hello , sweetheart .Did you have a nice dream?"
then she just stare at me weirdly
"Robert?where am I?"
"In the room .Just sleep sweety"
"No!I want to have fun in here, I want to see the other guys"
"Ok, Sweetheart"
and then I changed my mind and told her
"Can we just go there later?, I need a time 2 be with you"
then she just slammed herself into the bed and lay in my arms
then I said "Thank you"
and then I touched her lips that was soft
and then pulled her lips to mine
and yes
WE KISS!
then she pulled away hardly
"Rob?!"
her face was soo red like a tomato
because she couldnt breathe at all
then I just get my face 2 be more closer to her
and said "Ok , I know you're breathless.But I just love your lips sweetheart.I mean I just touched you sweety and I .."
before I done saying that she already pull my lips against her
and chewing my mouth.
and pulled away softly a little
"I love you"
then I just keep swallowing her tongue , her lips her mouth ..
that tasted chocolate because she just eaten chosolate last time with me
LOL
then already 2 mins she pulled away a little sayin "Rob , I couldnt breathe."
with her almost crying voice
then I kiss her lips again and pulled off saying "Just scratch me , or pitch my shirt or anything to make you better"
then she kissed my lips and taste my mouth again
but she's scratching my knees hardly and it does hurt alot .
I screamed hard
and sarah pulled away saying "im sorry , but you said I have to do this"
then I smile and said "Keep going . Because this the only time where we could kiss.. and feel each other"
"but Robert ."
I kissed her lips and saying "Dont worry , I'll be ok."
then she just kissed my lips again and I kept screaming
because it does hurtful
then she pulled away hardly
"THAT'S IT ROBERT I CANT DO IT!"
then I just lay in the bed and stare at her ..
she was feeling so guilty,breathless and powerless
sitting beside me
then I just sat beside her
and put my arms around her neck
with my other hand rubbing her face
"Im okay . "
and I just open my pants and look at my knees while putting my arms around her neck
and there's a scar of it
it does painful
she sigh and said to me "Robert . Im really sorry."
then I put my jeans on again and smiled at her "Dont worry about this shit.. anyway this thing will make me could remember you either"
she keep feeling guilty about it
and stare at my knees even I already put my jeans on
then I told her again "It will be okay . this thing could heal by itself it's a scar!"
but her face still telling me that she is guilty very guilty 4 this .
then I decide to sing her a song
"Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me"
It's a You found me by the fray .
then she asked me"Why u sang me that song?"
"I.D.K It just sing in my head . So I sing it to you"
then I hold her hands
"Sweetheart . If im hurting now It doesnt matter anyway it proves that I'll sacrifes for you either .. But If you're hurting I swear I'll do everything to make it ok . even I have to die 4 it"
then I try to get up from the bed
and stand beside the bed
but it's fucking hurt
so I just fell to the bed
and then sarah come to me and said
"Robert?"
then I turn around and smile to sarah
and said
"Dont worry . Im ok"
then I grab my phone inside my pocket
and call Jack to come here because I probably hurting
so they come and knock the door
then sarah get off from the bed
and try to open the door
but I stopped her by saying
"Just stay here , sweetheart . I know you still feel nervous meeting does bastards , Just let me get it"
"But."
"No, but!!!Just stay!"
and I still try to stand up
even it does hurtful but
I have to open the door
and cover my hurt feeling to make sarah thought
that I am fine
So I walk ..
"FUCK IT , BITCH , DAMN , SHIT ! IT DOES FUCKNG HURT"I crumbled inside my heart
but I kept walking and opening the door
then when i opened the door
my friends seems shock because of my face
seems so pale
and dying
then when my friends look at me they face suddenly being weird
they step back actually
well I know they afraid
but not that much
then Jack asked
"R u Robert ?"
and i just whisper
"Come in!"
with my scary face
then they quickly come in
then ashley look at sarah and yell
"SARAHHHHH!!!!!!"
and hug her
"Finally !! We meet!!"
but I just standing here
closing the door
then Nikki go 2 me
"Rob , r u ok?"
then I just shook my head
then nikki asked again
"what happen?"
then I just call tom
"Tom!!"
then he come to me and I draggd him to the toilet and close it
then I just sit in the bathub
"FINALLY!"
I scream not hardly
just screamed
softly
then tom asked
"What happen?"
then I showed my legs ,
that was kinda had a scar and there's blood in it
then tom said
"Yo!Dude?! What's happening ? Is she a werewolves?!"
"Fuckey mouse! U such an Idiot! She's not a werewolves!she's a human!"
"then what's wrong with your leg?!"
"It's a long story pal. So can u just take an ache bandage or search it in this bathroom?!"
"Ay-ay captain!"
then he search it and found it
and my ache , wasnt soo hurt anymore .
it much better
then when I stand up .
it's ok .
the pain is fading .
then I go 2 sarah spot .
and sit beside her .
and says
"Hey ,, yaa . My love ."
and she just answer
"Hey"
Just a simple Hey .
Kinda a little bit offened about this .
because she seems dont care about my scar .
and forget it just like that
but , I know I told her .
Im alright but .
Ok .
It's fine .
My fault.
then she just touch my knees .
while talking to ashley and the others .
then when the others talk by themselves
she whispered to my ear saying
"Do that pain have gone , Rob?"
then I just smiled and kiss her cheek.
and say
"I thought you forget it . haha . Oh , well It's much better sweetheart ."
then she just blink to my eyes and continue talking with them .
and I just lean in her little shoulder .
and watch tv .
then . because im bored and the tv was suck either .
I took my ciggarette and smoking .
then she look at my ciggarette like she wanna try more.
then I gave my ciggarette to her lips
and she suck it .
and yea , then she smoke .
My angel turns to a bad girl when she suck it
My little girl grow!
yay!
lolololololol
then I just laughed
and she look at me weirdly ,
saying
"Why u laugh?!"
then I just smiled and said
"Nothing , just .. nothing ."
and when I wanna took my ciggarette she hold it
and dont want to return it to me
hahahaha
my angel turns into a bad girl
LOL
then I kissed her cheek .
saying
"You're cute , little girl"
then she smile
and ask
"Cute ? Fuck that cute."
and then she just finish the ciggarette
and done
she put it in the plastic of our food.
that has finished
ow, she is hot
then Jack give us a baileys .
she drink it too
I know that's ilegal
but .
It's fine .
she could try
but this time
it's a lot
until she's drunk
and you know what when she's drunk .
she fought with kstew
because that bitch wanna slammed her mobile
and when
I saw it I just kick kstew
and took the mobile and give it to sarah
because ksew is sucj=h a crazy
sarah didnt do anything
she wanna slammed her mobile
crazy bitch
then I grabbed her to go to the outside of the room
to the , pool
and sit at the side of the pool
share our stories there ..
E:Why you bring me here?
R:You're drunk.
E:So?
R:U need a fresh air to breathe
E:Ow, So if we drunk we have to go to the outside and breathe
R:Yes.
E:Ow, ok
R:So, let's share our stories .
E:Na, I dont wanna .
R:Why ?
E:I think I have told you all of my stories in the webcam .
R:Yea. You right .
E:(Laugh)
R:So , what now?
E:What about you sharing your stories?
R:Me? Oh well. there's nothing ,
E:Come on tell me about the twilight or the fans .
R:The fans . n' the twilight . ok . I'll do my best to remind it
E:Why you do your best?
R:Because Im blank with you here
E:Why?
R:You make me blank , . Really I dont know all I focus is your face
E:U do bullshits again , dont ya?
R:Why should I?I never did bullshits anyway .they're stink just like the name
E:You know why I always said it's a bullshit?
R:why?
E:Because your words are like knives , they peel my skins and pierce my soul.You're body will burn tonight, but your heart will still remains cold. And I will blame myself.
R:Why you should blame yourself?
E:Because , there's something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself , and smething in your voice makes my heart beat fast .
R:Do it beats now?
E:Soo hard .
R:Can I hear it?
E:No!
R:LOL(laugh)
E:(playing with the water)
R:.......................................................
I forgot what I said in the end
after that I teach sarah how to swim
She's so wet and me too
my pain is really hurting
but I dont care
I teaching my girl how to swim
I could forget my pain
that still lingers in my body
We kissed whille I was teaching her .
We didnt drawn .
because I keep swinging my foot .
and then she pulled away softly and saying
"I rather this kiss than last time"
and because she said so.
I kissed her again .
then ..
after that
I carry her to the nearest
seat in the pool side and
lay her there
then we lay there
together
and here's the conversation
E:Show me how you do that trick.
R:The one that makes you scream?
E:Yes.
R:Or the one that makes you laugh?
E:Both .
R:(I threw my arms around her neck)
E:Show me how you do it .
R:and ?
E:I promise that I'll run away with you
R:Ok, it' easy just .(Laugh) R u kidding me?!
E:Yea . haha .
R:Where did you got those words?
E:Idk , It's just crossed in my brain .So, I said it to u
R:(Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head and dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow)
E:Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you ?
R:I know that you love me . I know that you just cover those all by just being cruel to me.
E:You, soft and only . you
R:(I touch her hand)You,lost and lonely and strange as angels.
E:You're just like a dream . I dont even believe that this was real.
R:I know it's hard to believe that this was real . But it was happening.(I saw her freezing because of she just got out from the pool wet and the air was cold either then I kissed her forehead then she move more closer to me)Cold?
E:(nugging)
and then I carried her
to our room
and when we arrived in the room .
we saw soo many dead peoples .
LOL
Not real dead peoples.
they're just passed out .
and who opened the door is only one man who could stay alive
haha
Jackson . hehe
he wasnt drank too much beer
so he could stay alive .
and then I put her
in the bed .
and she just lay there .
while looking me moving those dead mans to their rooms
with Jackson .
after that .
The room's clean and then I jump to the bed and
lean closer to her
and smile
then she just touch my face
and said "You're real"
and I smile soo big .
and move my face more closer to hers .
"Of course."
then now our face was touching each other .
(let me just write it like a dialog because it's easier)
E:Look Im sorry for the way I acted.
R:It' ok , I still love you
E:I love you too.
R:I wanna love you forever.
E:I dont .
ER:(Laugh)
R:Ok . haha .
E:What time is it?
R: (I forgot what I said)
E:Ow , Ok .
R:I don't want this moment to ever end
E:Me too .
R:We need each other do we?
E:Yes.
R:Im not gonna let you go away from me.
E:Ok.
R:(kiss elle's lips)I Need You , like you are a star.
E:Im not a star . but you are.
R:Im a star in the fuck life . but you are a star in a wonderful life.
E:(slap my face)
R:Hey!
ER:(laugh)
R:You changed my live oh soo patiently And turned it into something good and real
E:I think you're the one that was like that to me
R:Why?
E:Because I feel just like I felt in all my dreams.
R:Really?
E:Yea.
R:Same as me then.
E:There are questions hard to answer to u
R:What are they?
E:Um , Why you love me?
R:only that?
E:Nope. There's more but u have to answer this 1st .
R:Ok , Um . Because I love your soul.that's soo kind , and you're my type .
E:Why you loving me like no other?
R:Because,blablabla(I forgot)
E:Why you have those perfect face?
R:Idk.
E:Now the very hard question.
R:Will u promise me that you'll be loving me for the rest of your existence?
E:What?!
R:Will you?
E:I supposed to ask you question!
R:(laugh)
E:Not you!(laugh)
R:Sorry (laugh)
E:Ok , now can I continue my question?
R:Yea (laugh)
E:I love your smile .
R:thank you
E:they're ow , so . Dazzling .
R:thanks
E:I love it
R:Do u still want to continue your question?
E:I think nope.
ER:(kissing)
I could remember this kissing things is 2 minutes
Elle was crying this time .
saying
"I would never ever wanna lose you"
and I just rubbed her face softly .
"Dont cry , because I wont let anyone have you . You are mine always ."
"I need you" she whispered softly .
and pull her lips again softly and let go softly
"I need you too ."
I kiss her sweet lips slowly and softly.
Labels: unforgetable memories
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doll smiled.
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♥ Here Without You
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go,
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love,
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go,
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love,
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
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♥ Creeps
oh no what if I never knew your name
oh my god, the thought's insane
what if your love is not the same
as it seems inside my brain
what if your not really in my sheets
oh just the thought gives me the creeps...
oh my god, the thought's insane
what if your love is not the same
as it seems inside my brain
what if your not really in my sheets
oh just the thought gives me the creeps...
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
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♥ I still love you
..How happy i am when i met you..it was such a wonderful happiness when were together all the time...the bad times and good times that we shared the memories that we had..
how i love you so much..i follow you whatever you want me to do...I sacrifice everything just to pleased you..
I thought were gonna be together...forever...but i was wrong...really wrong..the promise that you made..it was gone..now that your gone..
i cried a lot..everynight..that passes by..my tears kept falling on my cheek..my pillows been wet for my tears..i cant do anything...just to cry..i cant shared it to my friends..because i really dont want you to have a bad image to them...
how will i ever forget you..those memories that we had...the laugther..the pain...the tears..when were together..
You cannot even say sorry for me..nor asking for an apology..but still i love you for what you did to me..I cant do anything but to forgive you...i know its hard to move on..but to release the pain..i have to forgive you...
I wont change...i will always be here for you..no matter what you did to me..i already forgiven you..
how i love you so much..i follow you whatever you want me to do...I sacrifice everything just to pleased you..
I thought were gonna be together...forever...but i was wrong...really wrong..the promise that you made..it was gone..now that your gone..
i cried a lot..everynight..that passes by..my tears kept falling on my cheek..my pillows been wet for my tears..i cant do anything...just to cry..i cant shared it to my friends..because i really dont want you to have a bad image to them...
how will i ever forget you..those memories that we had...the laugther..the pain...the tears..when were together..
You cannot even say sorry for me..nor asking for an apology..but still i love you for what you did to me..I cant do anything but to forgive you...i know its hard to move on..but to release the pain..i have to forgive you...
I wont change...i will always be here for you..no matter what you did to me..i already forgiven you..
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
13:34
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♥ My her ,
To lose a love like ours....
Is to lose a whole world,
to lose the very blanket that comforts you each day,
It is to lose all that makes you're life complete,
to lose all that we've become.
If all was to go now..this very day..
what would you miss?
what would you feel?
what would you do?
where would you rebuild you heart...and how could you possibly?
If all was to suddenly go...
would you miss the 'boos'?
miss the little ways we have?
miss our texts
miss the comfort of knowing just when and
where and how your loved one would contact you
without fail?
If we let this go.....
Would you find another to match up?
would you rebuild and carry on as before?
would you realise that not only had you lost
your one true lover..made for you,
but also that perfect and one true friend.
My her,
Im sorry for how i am right now,
please bear with me,
for i find life hard just now.
I know that soon,
my road will become clear and once again,
i will stand tall and beam brightly.
My Her,
These questions flow of my tongue without effort,
for they are ones that are embedded in my brain
each and every time i think such thoughts.
The answers ringing so clearly inside my head like
the loudest bell x
My her,
I could never replace you,
i could never find another like you,
i could never love again like this,
i could never feel as i do for another human being,
youve taken my heart and wrapped it in you
endless love where it feels at home and so very safe x
My Her,
Im so sorry for how i am just now,
i just need to remind you,
that i DO know,
JUST how lucky i am to have you xx
Is to lose a whole world,
to lose the very blanket that comforts you each day,
It is to lose all that makes you're life complete,
to lose all that we've become.
If all was to go now..this very day..
what would you miss?
what would you feel?
what would you do?
where would you rebuild you heart...and how could you possibly?
If all was to suddenly go...
would you miss the 'boos'?
miss the little ways we have?
miss our texts
miss the comfort of knowing just when and
where and how your loved one would contact you
without fail?
If we let this go.....
Would you find another to match up?
would you rebuild and carry on as before?
would you realise that not only had you lost
your one true lover..made for you,
but also that perfect and one true friend.
My her,
Im sorry for how i am right now,
please bear with me,
for i find life hard just now.
I know that soon,
my road will become clear and once again,
i will stand tall and beam brightly.
My Her,
These questions flow of my tongue without effort,
for they are ones that are embedded in my brain
each and every time i think such thoughts.
The answers ringing so clearly inside my head like
the loudest bell x
My her,
I could never replace you,
i could never find another like you,
i could never love again like this,
i could never feel as i do for another human being,
youve taken my heart and wrapped it in you
endless love where it feels at home and so very safe x
My Her,
Im so sorry for how i am just now,
i just need to remind you,
that i DO know,
JUST how lucky i am to have you xx
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
13:25
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♥ Elle
If you were a song,
Could I be the lyric?
And if you were my music,
No sorrow in my heart
That I can’t heal;
So let me sing along,
Together we'll make a good melody,
Or we could be,
Phrase and rhyme,
Together we'll make a good poetry.
How beautiful world would become,
If together is beyond just a daydream.
Neglecting my sanity,
Killing my dignity.
Integrity? Forgotten!
Now all I can think about is:
Gaining your affection.
Often,
Frightened by your silence.
Yet astonished by its absence.
Oh my affection is
Utilizing my imperfection.
Could I be the lyric?
And if you were my music,
No sorrow in my heart
That I can’t heal;
So let me sing along,
Together we'll make a good melody,
Or we could be,
Phrase and rhyme,
Together we'll make a good poetry.
How beautiful world would become,
If together is beyond just a daydream.
Neglecting my sanity,
Killing my dignity.
Integrity? Forgotten!
Now all I can think about is:
Gaining your affection.
Often,
Frightened by your silence.
Yet astonished by its absence.
Oh my affection is
Utilizing my imperfection.
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
13:21
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♥ Ache
i think i'm going crazy
or perhaps i'm feeling blue
i only know i'm hurting
because i'm missing you .
i feel a terrible yearning
whenever you're away
i miss that lovely laugh of yours
and the wonderful things you say .
yes i miss your conversation
and the cheery way you sing
i feel my heart aching
for all the joy you bring .
so please return to me my love
help to ease the pain
let me hold you in my arms
and never let you go again .
i miss your heavenly kisses
your absence has helped me to see
just how much i'm missing you
i pray you're missing me .
or perhaps i'm feeling blue
i only know i'm hurting
because i'm missing you .
i feel a terrible yearning
whenever you're away
i miss that lovely laugh of yours
and the wonderful things you say .
yes i miss your conversation
and the cheery way you sing
i feel my heart aching
for all the joy you bring .
so please return to me my love
help to ease the pain
let me hold you in my arms
and never let you go again .
i miss your heavenly kisses
your absence has helped me to see
just how much i'm missing you
i pray you're missing me .
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
13:20
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♥ Her hearts lullaby
Pain doesn’t hurt, when it’s all you’ve ever felt,
And no she doesn’t…she doesn’t need help.
She’s in a sea of people, but she’s the odd one out,
Scream long profanities, the loud one in the crowd.
A kiss on the lips, and blood on her tongue,
A over dose of memories and under dose of love.
Cupids aim is shit, eye sights off, and arrows run out,
Love is dying, and husbands walking out.
A mistress in hotel sheets, and a wife at home,
Knowing what you’re doing, drinking all alone.
An empty heart, echoing the hollow lullabies,
Begging for some attention, can’t you hear its cries?
She sits on a swing, listening to her parents fights,
She hears them yelling, then dad disappears for the night.
Her insides are black, and her heart deteriorated,
This wasn’t how we thought it would be, it was anticipated.
“Mummy, daddy, it’s almost noon,
The end is near, it’s coming soon.
My heart is empty, but it plays lullabies,
My heart slows, and I close my eyes.
Confined to one room, it’s too white,
The colours drained, but still, too bright.
No notice of me, as the darkness floods.
This is my note, now signed in blood.”
Her blood turns clear, and her thoughts affar,
No more heartache, and no more scars.
And no she doesn’t…she doesn’t need help.
She’s in a sea of people, but she’s the odd one out,
Scream long profanities, the loud one in the crowd.
A kiss on the lips, and blood on her tongue,
A over dose of memories and under dose of love.
Cupids aim is shit, eye sights off, and arrows run out,
Love is dying, and husbands walking out.
A mistress in hotel sheets, and a wife at home,
Knowing what you’re doing, drinking all alone.
An empty heart, echoing the hollow lullabies,
Begging for some attention, can’t you hear its cries?
She sits on a swing, listening to her parents fights,
She hears them yelling, then dad disappears for the night.
Her insides are black, and her heart deteriorated,
This wasn’t how we thought it would be, it was anticipated.
“Mummy, daddy, it’s almost noon,
The end is near, it’s coming soon.
My heart is empty, but it plays lullabies,
My heart slows, and I close my eyes.
Confined to one room, it’s too white,
The colours drained, but still, too bright.
No notice of me, as the darkness floods.
This is my note, now signed in blood.”
Her blood turns clear, and her thoughts affar,
No more heartache, and no more scars.
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
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♥ List of people who said Happy Bithday to me on May 13th
1.Mom *Thanks mom*
2.Victoria *My sister*
3.Tomstu*My bestest friend*
4.Lizzy*My sister*
5.Dad*haha*
6.Rachel *Thanks.*
7.Taylor
8.Kstew/Oregano
9.Rathbone/Nikki
10.Ashley
11.Kellan/Anny
12.Hugh Jackman *Thanks man!*
13.Elle *Love you too,hun*
14.Zeb
15.Dakota
16.Claire Bear
17.LiL' spunk.
18.Nicole *My sister*
19.Rose *Estefine*
20.Daffa
2.Victoria *My sister*
3.Tomstu*My bestest friend*
4.Lizzy*My sister*
5.Dad*haha*
6.Rachel *Thanks.*
7.Taylor
8.Kstew/Oregano
9.Rathbone/Nikki
10.Ashley
11.Kellan/Anny
12.Hugh Jackman *Thanks man!*
13.Elle *Love you too,hun*
14.Zeb
15.Dakota
16.Claire Bear
17.LiL' spunk.
18.Nicole *My sister*
19.Rose *Estefine*
20.Daffa
Labels: just a note
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doll smiled.
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♥ My chat with My Elle <3
Elle
YES?!
18:32Rob
Okay , Cool .I made you BLUSHING
18:32Elle
What
*What's that supposed to mean???
18:33Rob
I did it
18:33Elle
did what ?
18:33Rob
made you blush?
18:33Elle
So????
18:33Rob
I'm happy !
18:34Elle
You acted like Ashley Michelle Greene
Are you her??????
18:34Rob
NO!
Please,love
I'm Robert
Robert
Thomas
Pattinson
Your fucking boyfriend?
18:35Elle
I think I don't know you
18:35Rob
Ugh
I'm your Edward Cullen , love
18:36Elle
Oh , you're that stupid un-match vampire who acted in twilight???
Who smelled like shit ?
Who never shower?
Who like *HUMANS BLOOD*?
HUMANS BLOOD
Who scared of fangirls???
Who told himself tha he was a dick ??
*that
18:38Rob
Yes
18:39Elle
Oh , so.. WHAT ARE WANT TO DO TO ME?
18:39Rob
Just , love you ?
or maybe saying 'I love you'
18:39Elle
*Oh , so.. WHAT ARE YOU WANT TO DO TO ME?
why YOU LOVE ME?
18:40Rob
because
you stole my heart
and
you are my life
and I love my life
18:41Elle
no, no.
I'm not your life
I'm just a girl
18:42Rob
Yea, a girl that I LOVE IN THE REST OF MY EXISTENCE
18:42Elle
okay , Rob.
I lost you win
you ALWAYS win
in our conversation like this
18:43Rob
Course
I will do everything
just to win and make you mine
I just need you
ONLY YOU
Fight like this was .
Nothing to me
Well if we break up
just because of this
Maybe ,
that's when you know that I'm not me anymore
18:46Elle
Dammit , Robert
Your word sucks
the best
18:46Rob
LoL
Why ?
18:46Elle
It made me breathless?
18:47Rob
Haha. Don't
LoL
Just try to breath love
I don't want you to die ever
18:47Elle
then what if I die suddenly ?
18:48Rob
That's the moment when I tell the people to kill me
or maybe I'll do suicide
18:48Elle
Why ? You still have your amazing life
18:49Rob
No, I don't you to be in the dark alone
I want to stand beside you
So, I'll follow you into the dark
18:50Elle
Robert ..
18:52Rob
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No, I'm not. I just inspired from Edward , really. LoL
18:52Elle is offline.
18:52Elle is online.
18:53Rob
No, I'm not. I just inspired from Edward , really. LoL
18:54Elle
Okay, I believe you .
now can we take a break
for a few seconds?
Please
18:55Rob
Course. Love I'll wait as long as you want
18:55Elle
okay
18:55Rob
btw , love
18:55Elle
What ?
18:55Rob
Can I post this on my notes?
18:56Elle
up to u
18:56Rob
okay thanks lovelyy !
18:57Rob
hhunnyy
Ilost my previous chat
* I lost
18:58Elle
huh?
18:58Rob
DK
18:58Elle
how?
18:58Rob
It's just gone
18:58Elle
ok
then just ..
up 2 u
18:58Rob
okay
YES?!
18:32Rob
Okay , Cool .I made you BLUSHING
18:32Elle
What
*What's that supposed to mean???
18:33Rob
I did it
18:33Elle
did what ?
18:33Rob
made you blush?
18:33Elle
So????
18:33Rob
I'm happy !
18:34Elle
You acted like Ashley Michelle Greene
Are you her??????
18:34Rob
NO!
Please,love
I'm Robert
Robert
Thomas
Pattinson
Your fucking boyfriend?
18:35Elle
I think I don't know you
18:35Rob
Ugh
I'm your Edward Cullen , love
18:36Elle
Oh , you're that stupid un-match vampire who acted in twilight???
Who smelled like shit ?
Who never shower?
Who like *HUMANS BLOOD*?
HUMANS BLOOD
Who scared of fangirls???
Who told himself tha he was a dick ??
*that
18:38Rob
Yes
18:39Elle
Oh , so.. WHAT ARE WANT TO DO TO ME?
18:39Rob
Just , love you ?
or maybe saying 'I love you'
18:39Elle
*Oh , so.. WHAT ARE YOU WANT TO DO TO ME?
why YOU LOVE ME?
18:40Rob
because
you stole my heart
and
you are my life
and I love my life
18:41Elle
no, no.
I'm not your life
I'm just a girl
18:42Rob
Yea, a girl that I LOVE IN THE REST OF MY EXISTENCE
18:42Elle
okay , Rob.
I lost you win
you ALWAYS win
in our conversation like this
18:43Rob
Course
I will do everything
just to win and make you mine
I just need you
ONLY YOU
Fight like this was .
Nothing to me
Well if we break up
just because of this
Maybe ,
that's when you know that I'm not me anymore
18:46Elle
Dammit , Robert
Your word sucks
the best
18:46Rob
LoL
Why ?
18:46Elle
It made me breathless?
18:47Rob
Haha. Don't
LoL
Just try to breath love
I don't want you to die ever
18:47Elle
then what if I die suddenly ?
18:48Rob
That's the moment when I tell the people to kill me
or maybe I'll do suicide
18:48Elle
Why ? You still have your amazing life
18:49Rob
No, I don't you to be in the dark alone
I want to stand beside you
So, I'll follow you into the dark
18:50Elle
Robert ..
18:52Rob
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No, I'm not. I just inspired from Edward , really. LoL
18:52Elle is offline.
18:52Elle is online.
18:53Rob
No, I'm not. I just inspired from Edward , really. LoL
18:54Elle
Okay, I believe you .
now can we take a break
for a few seconds?
Please
18:55Rob
Course. Love I'll wait as long as you want
18:55Elle
okay
18:55Rob
btw , love
18:55Elle
What ?
18:55Rob
Can I post this on my notes?
18:56Elle
up to u
18:56Rob
okay thanks lovelyy !
18:57Rob
hhunnyy
Ilost my previous chat
* I lost
18:58Elle
huh?
18:58Rob
DK
18:58Elle
how?
18:58Rob
It's just gone
18:58Elle
ok
then just ..
up 2 u
18:58Rob
okay
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doll smiled.
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♥ Cold,Dead,Pale
My cold, cold dead heart,
no longer beating
and forever frozen in time.
My pale, pale skin,
no longer blood flowing
just venom of the aftermath.
My true, true, truest emotions,
Just abstract in the purest form,
Still feeling, still aching, still loving.
no longer beating
and forever frozen in time.
My pale, pale skin,
no longer blood flowing
just venom of the aftermath.
My true, true, truest emotions,
Just abstract in the purest form,
Still feeling, still aching, still loving.
Labels: for my love
♥ My
doll smiled.
13:11
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♥ Loving You
Loving my love it's like breathing.
Without loving her, my soul is like a hollow
and I am become death.
And so, I want to be with her until the rest of my existence.
I don't care if I have to bleed just to hold her.
I don't care if I have to feel pain just to be beside her.
Nothing and none can't stop my love for her.
Cause she's my heart.
She's my only reason to be alive right now.
but if the moment her heart stops beating is coming.
That's the moment when I tell you to kill me.
(Because I want to be beside her when she's alone in the dark)
Without loving her, my soul is like a hollow
and I am become death.
And so, I want to be with her until the rest of my existence.
I don't care if I have to bleed just to hold her.
I don't care if I have to feel pain just to be beside her.
Nothing and none can't stop my love for her.
Cause she's my heart.
She's my only reason to be alive right now.
but if the moment her heart stops beating is coming.
That's the moment when I tell you to kill me.
(Because I want to be beside her when she's alone in the dark)
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
12:52
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♥ Sorry
For you,
My love i am sorry.
I find myself in a pool of water,
that isnt mearly a puddle,
but an ocean of my sorrow.
The salt of my tears,
it dries my skin,
the hate of myself,
leaves me in contempt.
I love you still,
but to coward am i to say it,
and better off you are,
that the scum i am or was,
had left.
I didnt deserve you,
or measure up to your grace,
i should go blind,
for your beauty,
deserves more than this face,
that was,
that is,
that could have been,
that should have been.
For you,
I am sorry,
That i can not let go of my mistakes,
sweet Vampiress,
my lost Goddess,
because i saw to late.
My love i am sorry.
I find myself in a pool of water,
that isnt mearly a puddle,
but an ocean of my sorrow.
The salt of my tears,
it dries my skin,
the hate of myself,
leaves me in contempt.
I love you still,
but to coward am i to say it,
and better off you are,
that the scum i am or was,
had left.
I didnt deserve you,
or measure up to your grace,
i should go blind,
for your beauty,
deserves more than this face,
that was,
that is,
that could have been,
that should have been.
For you,
I am sorry,
That i can not let go of my mistakes,
sweet Vampiress,
my lost Goddess,
because i saw to late.
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
12:43
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♥ I wish
I wish my heart was still beating
so I could feel the pain of it shattering
and then becoming one again.
I wish my eyes would fill up with tears
so I could cry for you.
I wish I wouldn't hate myself so much
and instead love you even more then I do.
I wish that I could fall asleep
and not be haunted by the memories of regret
but instead to dream of you when I'm not there.
so I could feel the pain of it shattering
and then becoming one again.
I wish my eyes would fill up with tears
so I could cry for you.
I wish I wouldn't hate myself so much
and instead love you even more then I do.
I wish that I could fall asleep
and not be haunted by the memories of regret
but instead to dream of you when I'm not there.
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doll smiled.
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♥ Love
I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know.
You're the one that I love.
And I can't let you go
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know.
You're the one that I love.
And I can't let you go
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
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♥ Hold On Me
Everything's going to be allright.
If you just believe me and hold my arms tight.
I would do anything to make you safe.
If I have to sacrifices my life to save you
I swear I'll do it.
To my only love.
Because I love you.
And I meant it from the bottom of my heart
So,please,please,please
Don't ever let your faith breaks in me
Keep it and you'll always be safe
If you just believe me and hold my arms tight.
I would do anything to make you safe.
If I have to sacrifices my life to save you
I swear I'll do it.
To my only love.
Because I love you.
And I meant it from the bottom of my heart
So,please,please,please
Don't ever let your faith breaks in me
Keep it and you'll always be safe
Labels: for my love
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doll smiled.
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