6/03/2009
♥ Feb 13th
AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS DAY!
THIS DAY!
WAS A VERY SPECIAL DAY!
WAS A VERY PRECIOUS!
UNFORGETABLE!
MEMORABLE!
LOVELY!
WONDERFUL!
AWESOME!
FUN!
HOT!
ROMANTIC!
COOLEST!!
DAY EVA!
I SLEPT WITH ELLE
KISS ELLE
HX WITH ELLE!*NO*
HUG ELLE
SAVE ELLE
I PROBABLY ENOUGH!
VERY ENOUGH FOR THIS SHIT!
AH!
GUYS YOU KNOW WHAT
IN 10 PM I KISSED ELLE LIPS 16 MINS!!!!!
maybe
IT WAS SOO FUCKING FUN!
WELL ELLE VERY
BREATHLESS THAT TIME
WE KISS EACH OTHER TIL I DID FELL FROM THE BED
WE ALMOST OPENING OUR CLOTHES!!
nooo
kidding
we're not almsot opening clothes .
lol
i mean
that's very impossible!
So let's see
I wanna tell you ALL!
that
gah Sarah was soo cute when sleeping
I cant 4get it
I really cannot
4get it at all
we bought soo much chocolate that day
we bought that chocolate for ..
Claire bear..
yea 4 her
I bought 30 chocolate but have eaten by those disgusting ants!
LoL
(sorry rach u have to blame them!)
well so we bought chocolate 4 her
Sarah walked by herself
looking 4 chocolate same as me
then we meet at the cashier place
I pay 4 it
and .. Im holding her hand
and then she lean in my arms lol
it's in pim
soo many people looking and stare at us
but im just dont care at it
and instead of kissing her hair when they see us
LoL
So then
We go 2 starbucks
drink something ..
and sitting there
We sat on the sofa
So sarah could lean in my arms
then I take my laptop on my bag and turn it on
So I could online
we talk about our life
I still remember all
(well not all just the memorable one)
E: Rob .
R: Yes .
E: Why you still want me to be as your gf? I mean you've look at me face to face. Live! and I wasnt that Pretty and Hot like those girls . But you still want me .
R: (laugh) Sweetheart (hold sarah's face) You're funny .
E: Nee? Why? (looking me soo confusely)
R: I mean . Do you really have any idea how important you are to me? Any concept at all of how much I love you?
E: (shaking her head)
R: (Laugh) (then I kissed Sarah lips) Stupid . I love you more than I love myself Sarah.
E: Rob . you know what . I still cant believe that you're YOU now . Maybe you're just Robert as disguise
R: Ok , then if you haven't believe I am Robert . Open my glasses now and check what's different..
E: WHAT? R U CRAZY?!
R: Well you said you dont believe me. So open it! Or u want me 2 open it by myself??
E: No..!!! Please Robert!!!!!!! Im begging you ..
R: (laugh) You're such a cute gf I ever had! (kissing)
LOL
that's the only conversation that I remember in Starbucks
LOL
The very unforgetable one
so then after a minute Sarah was kinda bored and want it to walk around
and soo we went to pim 2 just walking around but then I saw a guitar store
and then I asked her "Sarah , Can you play guitar?"
"A little, Why?"
"Well , If I bought you a guitar . Do you'll love it?"
"Course!! I mean Duh?!"
her eyes was sparkling like she do wanted it soo much
So then I thought I wanna buy a guitar 4 sarah 4 her valentine's gift
but it's a suprise
SO then I just called Nikki too drive sarah back 2 her home and
We'll pick her up later
She did kinda confuse why do we drive her 2 her house and leave her
just like that
She did mad
her eyes was full of water
n yes she did wanna cry lol
It hurts!
4 me
but I have too.
Even it's hard
but she'll suprised about it later
thenn
it's been 2 hours since I left her
she must be soo stressful about this
LOL
(sorry sweetheart)
then I pick her up around 8.30pm
and thank God there's no anyone in the house!
IM VERY GLAD OF THAT!
lol
and so then
I called Sarah cell and told her to get down
and go 2 my car
the she goes down
and her eyes was red
I bet she did Cry!LOL
me and nikki was just smiling soo big
and then
When she wants to get in to car
I stopped her and say
"wait b4 you get in there's something"
then sarah just be quiet and curious
and I just smile
"Nikki . Show her"
then Nikki took the guitar from the bagage
and gave it to me then I said
"Hey , Lovely . This is for you . Im sorry because you have to wait in your house and .. Im sorry to left you"
and then she just gasp and cover her mouth
then HUG ME!
"Rob, Robert .. Are , Are You Cra..Cra..Crazy???"
then I laugh
"Im sure You are"
then she just too shock
and nikki said
"Hey sarah . This is why we put you here!"
but sarah just dont answer Nikki and still suprised about that guitar
and so I told her
"Let's just try this later, My love"
then she just smile like an sweet angel
LoL
and then
I get into the car and sarah sit on my knees
n Nikki drive .
and you know what
my fear of the car was probably gone when im with her
SO I dont wear a sit belts lol
and from time to time she slept in my chest
til we arrive
(She sleep like an angel)
then I wouldnt woke her up
I just carry her to the room
OUR ROOM!
LoL
and then I put her in the bed
and then I just open my jacket , glasses , beanie and everything that was not comfortable!
and then I get into the blanket and rub her face . her hair and then kiss her cheeks
and forehead
I cant stop staring at her face that time
.
.
.
I really dont want to miss a thing
then 5 mins later
or 15 mins later
she woke up and look at my face
and I said "Hello , sweetheart .Did you have a nice dream?"
then she just stare at me weirdly
"Robert?where am I?"
"In the room .Just sleep sweety"
"No!I want to have fun in here, I want to see the other guys"
"Ok, Sweetheart"
and then I changed my mind and told her
"Can we just go there later?, I need a time 2 be with you"
then she just slammed herself into the bed and lay in my arms
then I said "Thank you"
and then I touched her lips that was soft
and then pulled her lips to mine
and yes
WE KISS!
then she pulled away hardly
"Rob?!"
her face was soo red like a tomato
because she couldnt breathe at all
then I just get my face 2 be more closer to her
and said "Ok , I know you're breathless.But I just love your lips sweetheart.I mean I just touched you sweety and I .."
before I done saying that she already pull my lips against her
and chewing my mouth.
and pulled away softly a little
"I love you"
then I just keep swallowing her tongue , her lips her mouth ..
that tasted chocolate because she just eaten chosolate last time with me
LOL
then already 2 mins she pulled away a little sayin "Rob , I couldnt breathe."
with her almost crying voice
then I kiss her lips again and pulled off saying "Just scratch me , or pitch my shirt or anything to make you better"
then she kissed my lips and taste my mouth again
but she's scratching my knees hardly and it does hurt alot .
I screamed hard
and sarah pulled away saying "im sorry , but you said I have to do this"
then I smile and said "Keep going . Because this the only time where we could kiss.. and feel each other"
"but Robert ."
I kissed her lips and saying "Dont worry , I'll be ok."
then she just kissed my lips again and I kept screaming
because it does hurtful
then she pulled away hardly
"THAT'S IT ROBERT I CANT DO IT!"
then I just lay in the bed and stare at her ..
she was feeling so guilty,breathless and powerless
sitting beside me
then I just sat beside her
and put my arms around her neck
with my other hand rubbing her face
"Im okay . "
and I just open my pants and look at my knees while putting my arms around her neck
and there's a scar of it
it does painful
she sigh and said to me "Robert . Im really sorry."
then I put my jeans on again and smiled at her "Dont worry about this shit.. anyway this thing will make me could remember you either"
she keep feeling guilty about it
and stare at my knees even I already put my jeans on
then I told her again "It will be okay . this thing could heal by itself it's a scar!"
but her face still telling me that she is guilty very guilty 4 this .
then I decide to sing her a song
"Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me"
It's a You found me by the fray .
then she asked me"Why u sang me that song?"
"I.D.K It just sing in my head . So I sing it to you"
then I hold her hands
"Sweetheart . If im hurting now It doesnt matter anyway it proves that I'll sacrifes for you either .. But If you're hurting I swear I'll do everything to make it ok . even I have to die 4 it"
then I try to get up from the bed
and stand beside the bed
but it's fucking hurt
so I just fell to the bed
and then sarah come to me and said
"Robert?"
then I turn around and smile to sarah
and said
"Dont worry . Im ok"
then I grab my phone inside my pocket
and call Jack to come here because I probably hurting
so they come and knock the door
then sarah get off from the bed
and try to open the door
but I stopped her by saying
"Just stay here , sweetheart . I know you still feel nervous meeting does bastards , Just let me get it"
"But."
"No, but!!!Just stay!"
and I still try to stand up
even it does hurtful but
I have to open the door
and cover my hurt feeling to make sarah thought
that I am fine
So I walk ..
"FUCK IT , BITCH , DAMN , SHIT ! IT DOES FUCKNG HURT"I crumbled inside my heart
but I kept walking and opening the door
then when i opened the door
my friends seems shock because of my face
seems so pale
and dying
then when my friends look at me they face suddenly being weird
they step back actually
well I know they afraid
but not that much
then Jack asked
"R u Robert ?"
and i just whisper
"Come in!"
with my scary face
then they quickly come in
then ashley look at sarah and yell
"SARAHHHHH!!!!!!"
and hug her
"Finally !! We meet!!"
but I just standing here
closing the door
then Nikki go 2 me
"Rob , r u ok?"
then I just shook my head
then nikki asked again
"what happen?"
then I just call tom
"Tom!!"
then he come to me and I draggd him to the toilet and close it
then I just sit in the bathub
"FINALLY!"
I scream not hardly
just screamed
softly
then tom asked
"What happen?"
then I showed my legs ,
that was kinda had a scar and there's blood in it
then tom said
"Yo!Dude?! What's happening ? Is she a werewolves?!"
"Fuckey mouse! U such an Idiot! She's not a werewolves!she's a human!"
"then what's wrong with your leg?!"
"It's a long story pal. So can u just take an ache bandage or search it in this bathroom?!"
"Ay-ay captain!"
then he search it and found it
and my ache , wasnt soo hurt anymore .
it much better
then when I stand up .
it's ok .
the pain is fading .
then I go 2 sarah spot .
and sit beside her .
and says
"Hey ,, yaa . My love ."
and she just answer
"Hey"
Just a simple Hey .
Kinda a little bit offened about this .
because she seems dont care about my scar .
and forget it just like that
but , I know I told her .
Im alright but .
Ok .
It's fine .
My fault.
then she just touch my knees .
while talking to ashley and the others .
then when the others talk by themselves
she whispered to my ear saying
"Do that pain have gone , Rob?"
then I just smiled and kiss her cheek.
and say
"I thought you forget it . haha . Oh , well It's much better sweetheart ."
then she just blink to my eyes and continue talking with them .
and I just lean in her little shoulder .
and watch tv .
then . because im bored and the tv was suck either .
I took my ciggarette and smoking .
then she look at my ciggarette like she wanna try more.
then I gave my ciggarette to her lips
and she suck it .
and yea , then she smoke .
My angel turns to a bad girl when she suck it
My little girl grow!
yay!
lolololololol
then I just laughed
and she look at me weirdly ,
saying
"Why u laugh?!"
then I just smiled and said
"Nothing , just .. nothing ."
and when I wanna took my ciggarette she hold it
and dont want to return it to me
hahahaha
my angel turns into a bad girl
LOL
then I kissed her cheek .
saying
"You're cute , little girl"
then she smile
and ask
"Cute ? Fuck that cute."
and then she just finish the ciggarette
and done
she put it in the plastic of our food.
that has finished
ow, she is hot
then Jack give us a baileys .
she drink it too
I know that's ilegal
but .
It's fine .
she could try
but this time
it's a lot
until she's drunk
and you know what when she's drunk .
she fought with kstew
because that bitch wanna slammed her mobile
and when
I saw it I just kick kstew
and took the mobile and give it to sarah
because ksew is sucj=h a crazy
sarah didnt do anything
she wanna slammed her mobile
crazy bitch
then I grabbed her to go to the outside of the room
to the , pool
and sit at the side of the pool
share our stories there ..
E:Why you bring me here?
R:You're drunk.
E:So?
R:U need a fresh air to breathe
E:Ow, So if we drunk we have to go to the outside and breathe
R:Yes.
E:Ow, ok
R:So, let's share our stories .
E:Na, I dont wanna .
R:Why ?
E:I think I have told you all of my stories in the webcam .
R:Yea. You right .
E:(Laugh)
R:So , what now?
E:What about you sharing your stories?
R:Me? Oh well. there's nothing ,
E:Come on tell me about the twilight or the fans .
R:The fans . n' the twilight . ok . I'll do my best to remind it
E:Why you do your best?
R:Because Im blank with you here
E:Why?
R:You make me blank , . Really I dont know all I focus is your face
E:U do bullshits again , dont ya?
R:Why should I?I never did bullshits anyway .they're stink just like the name
E:You know why I always said it's a bullshit?
R:why?
E:Because your words are like knives , they peel my skins and pierce my soul.You're body will burn tonight, but your heart will still remains cold. And I will blame myself.
R:Why you should blame yourself?
E:Because , there's something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself , and smething in your voice makes my heart beat fast .
R:Do it beats now?
E:Soo hard .
R:Can I hear it?
E:No!
R:LOL(laugh)
E:(playing with the water)
R:.......................................................
I forgot what I said in the end
after that I teach sarah how to swim
She's so wet and me too
my pain is really hurting
but I dont care
I teaching my girl how to swim
I could forget my pain
that still lingers in my body
We kissed whille I was teaching her .
We didnt drawn .
because I keep swinging my foot .
and then she pulled away softly and saying
"I rather this kiss than last time"
and because she said so.
I kissed her again .
then ..
after that
I carry her to the nearest
seat in the pool side and
lay her there
then we lay there
together
and here's the conversation
E:Show me how you do that trick.
R:The one that makes you scream?
E:Yes.
R:Or the one that makes you laugh?
E:Both .
R:(I threw my arms around her neck)
E:Show me how you do it .
R:and ?
E:I promise that I'll run away with you
R:Ok, it' easy just .(Laugh) R u kidding me?!
E:Yea . haha .
R:Where did you got those words?
E:Idk , It's just crossed in my brain .So, I said it to u
R:(Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head and dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow)
E:Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you ?
R:I know that you love me . I know that you just cover those all by just being cruel to me.
E:You, soft and only . you
R:(I touch her hand)You,lost and lonely and strange as angels.
E:You're just like a dream . I dont even believe that this was real.
R:I know it's hard to believe that this was real . But it was happening.(I saw her freezing because of she just got out from the pool wet and the air was cold either then I kissed her forehead then she move more closer to me)Cold?
E:(nugging)
and then I carried her
to our room
and when we arrived in the room .
we saw soo many dead peoples .
LOL
Not real dead peoples.
they're just passed out .
and who opened the door is only one man who could stay alive
haha
Jackson . hehe
he wasnt drank too much beer
so he could stay alive .
and then I put her
in the bed .
and she just lay there .
while looking me moving those dead mans to their rooms
with Jackson .
after that .
The room's clean and then I jump to the bed and
lean closer to her
and smile
then she just touch my face
and said "You're real"
and I smile soo big .
and move my face more closer to hers .
"Of course."
then now our face was touching each other .
(let me just write it like a dialog because it's easier)
E:Look Im sorry for the way I acted.
R:It' ok , I still love you
E:I love you too.
R:I wanna love you forever.
E:I dont .
ER:(Laugh)
R:Ok . haha .
E:What time is it?
R: (I forgot what I said)
E:Ow , Ok .
R:I don't want this moment to ever end
E:Me too .
R:We need each other do we?
E:Yes.
R:Im not gonna let you go away from me.
E:Ok.
R:(kiss elle's lips)I Need You , like you are a star.
E:Im not a star . but you are.
R:Im a star in the fuck life . but you are a star in a wonderful life.
E:(slap my face)
R:Hey!
ER:(laugh)
R:You changed my live oh soo patiently And turned it into something good and real
E:I think you're the one that was like that to me
R:Why?
E:Because I feel just like I felt in all my dreams.
R:Really?
E:Yea.
R:Same as me then.
E:There are questions hard to answer to u
R:What are they?
E:Um , Why you love me?
R:only that?
E:Nope. There's more but u have to answer this 1st .
R:Ok , Um . Because I love your soul.that's soo kind , and you're my type .
E:Why you loving me like no other?
R:Because,blablabla(I forgot)
E:Why you have those perfect face?
R:Idk.
E:Now the very hard question.
R:Will u promise me that you'll be loving me for the rest of your existence?
E:What?!
R:Will you?
E:I supposed to ask you question!
R:(laugh)
E:Not you!(laugh)
R:Sorry (laugh)
E:Ok , now can I continue my question?
R:Yea (laugh)
E:I love your smile .
R:thank you
E:they're ow , so . Dazzling .
R:thanks
E:I love it
R:Do u still want to continue your question?
E:I think nope.
ER:(kissing)
I could remember this kissing things is 2 minutes
Elle was crying this time .
saying
"I would never ever wanna lose you"
and I just rubbed her face softly .
"Dont cry , because I wont let anyone have you . You are mine always ."
"I need you" she whispered softly .
and pull her lips again softly and let go softly
"I need you too ."
I kiss her sweet lips slowly and softly.
THIS DAY!
THIS DAY!
WAS A VERY SPECIAL DAY!
WAS A VERY PRECIOUS!
UNFORGETABLE!
MEMORABLE!
LOVELY!
WONDERFUL!
AWESOME!
FUN!
HOT!
ROMANTIC!
COOLEST!!
DAY EVA!
I SLEPT WITH ELLE
KISS ELLE
HX WITH ELLE!*NO*
HUG ELLE
SAVE ELLE
I PROBABLY ENOUGH!
VERY ENOUGH FOR THIS SHIT!
AH!
GUYS YOU KNOW WHAT
IN 10 PM I KISSED ELLE LIPS 16 MINS!!!!!
maybe
IT WAS SOO FUCKING FUN!
WELL ELLE VERY
BREATHLESS THAT TIME
WE KISS EACH OTHER TIL I DID FELL FROM THE BED
WE ALMOST OPENING OUR CLOTHES!!
nooo
kidding
we're not almsot opening clothes .
lol
i mean
that's very impossible!
So let's see
I wanna tell you ALL!
that
gah Sarah was soo cute when sleeping
I cant 4get it
I really cannot
4get it at all
we bought soo much chocolate that day
we bought that chocolate for ..
Claire bear..
yea 4 her
I bought 30 chocolate but have eaten by those disgusting ants!
LoL
(sorry rach u have to blame them!)
well so we bought chocolate 4 her
Sarah walked by herself
looking 4 chocolate same as me
then we meet at the cashier place
I pay 4 it
and .. Im holding her hand
and then she lean in my arms lol
it's in pim
soo many people looking and stare at us
but im just dont care at it
and instead of kissing her hair when they see us
LoL
So then
We go 2 starbucks
drink something ..
and sitting there
We sat on the sofa
So sarah could lean in my arms
then I take my laptop on my bag and turn it on
So I could online
we talk about our life
I still remember all
(well not all just the memorable one)
E: Rob .
R: Yes .
E: Why you still want me to be as your gf? I mean you've look at me face to face. Live! and I wasnt that Pretty and Hot like those girls . But you still want me .
R: (laugh) Sweetheart (hold sarah's face) You're funny .
E: Nee? Why? (looking me soo confusely)
R: I mean . Do you really have any idea how important you are to me? Any concept at all of how much I love you?
E: (shaking her head)
R: (Laugh) (then I kissed Sarah lips) Stupid . I love you more than I love myself Sarah.
E: Rob . you know what . I still cant believe that you're YOU now . Maybe you're just Robert as disguise
R: Ok , then if you haven't believe I am Robert . Open my glasses now and check what's different..
E: WHAT? R U CRAZY?!
R: Well you said you dont believe me. So open it! Or u want me 2 open it by myself??
E: No..!!! Please Robert!!!!!!! Im begging you ..
R: (laugh) You're such a cute gf I ever had! (kissing)
LOL
that's the only conversation that I remember in Starbucks
LOL
The very unforgetable one
so then after a minute Sarah was kinda bored and want it to walk around
and soo we went to pim 2 just walking around but then I saw a guitar store
and then I asked her "Sarah , Can you play guitar?"
"A little, Why?"
"Well , If I bought you a guitar . Do you'll love it?"
"Course!! I mean Duh?!"
her eyes was sparkling like she do wanted it soo much
So then I thought I wanna buy a guitar 4 sarah 4 her valentine's gift
but it's a suprise
SO then I just called Nikki too drive sarah back 2 her home and
We'll pick her up later
She did kinda confuse why do we drive her 2 her house and leave her
just like that
She did mad
her eyes was full of water
n yes she did wanna cry lol
It hurts!
4 me
but I have too.
Even it's hard
but she'll suprised about it later
thenn
it's been 2 hours since I left her
she must be soo stressful about this
LOL
(sorry sweetheart)
then I pick her up around 8.30pm
and thank God there's no anyone in the house!
IM VERY GLAD OF THAT!
lol
and so then
I called Sarah cell and told her to get down
and go 2 my car
the she goes down
and her eyes was red
I bet she did Cry!LOL
me and nikki was just smiling soo big
and then
When she wants to get in to car
I stopped her and say
"wait b4 you get in there's something"
then sarah just be quiet and curious
and I just smile
"Nikki . Show her"
then Nikki took the guitar from the bagage
and gave it to me then I said
"Hey , Lovely . This is for you . Im sorry because you have to wait in your house and .. Im sorry to left you"
and then she just gasp and cover her mouth
then HUG ME!
"Rob, Robert .. Are , Are You Cra..Cra..Crazy???"
then I laugh
"Im sure You are"
then she just too shock
and nikki said
"Hey sarah . This is why we put you here!"
but sarah just dont answer Nikki and still suprised about that guitar
and so I told her
"Let's just try this later, My love"
then she just smile like an sweet angel
LoL
and then
I get into the car and sarah sit on my knees
n Nikki drive .
and you know what
my fear of the car was probably gone when im with her
SO I dont wear a sit belts lol
and from time to time she slept in my chest
til we arrive
(She sleep like an angel)
then I wouldnt woke her up
I just carry her to the room
OUR ROOM!
LoL
and then I put her in the bed
and then I just open my jacket , glasses , beanie and everything that was not comfortable!
and then I get into the blanket and rub her face . her hair and then kiss her cheeks
and forehead
I cant stop staring at her face that time
.
.
.
I really dont want to miss a thing
then 5 mins later
or 15 mins later
she woke up and look at my face
and I said "Hello , sweetheart .Did you have a nice dream?"
then she just stare at me weirdly
"Robert?where am I?"
"In the room .Just sleep sweety"
"No!I want to have fun in here, I want to see the other guys"
"Ok, Sweetheart"
and then I changed my mind and told her
"Can we just go there later?, I need a time 2 be with you"
then she just slammed herself into the bed and lay in my arms
then I said "Thank you"
and then I touched her lips that was soft
and then pulled her lips to mine
and yes
WE KISS!
then she pulled away hardly
"Rob?!"
her face was soo red like a tomato
because she couldnt breathe at all
then I just get my face 2 be more closer to her
and said "Ok , I know you're breathless.But I just love your lips sweetheart.I mean I just touched you sweety and I .."
before I done saying that she already pull my lips against her
and chewing my mouth.
and pulled away softly a little
"I love you"
then I just keep swallowing her tongue , her lips her mouth ..
that tasted chocolate because she just eaten chosolate last time with me
LOL
then already 2 mins she pulled away a little sayin "Rob , I couldnt breathe."
with her almost crying voice
then I kiss her lips again and pulled off saying "Just scratch me , or pitch my shirt or anything to make you better"
then she kissed my lips and taste my mouth again
but she's scratching my knees hardly and it does hurt alot .
I screamed hard
and sarah pulled away saying "im sorry , but you said I have to do this"
then I smile and said "Keep going . Because this the only time where we could kiss.. and feel each other"
"but Robert ."
I kissed her lips and saying "Dont worry , I'll be ok."
then she just kissed my lips again and I kept screaming
because it does hurtful
then she pulled away hardly
"THAT'S IT ROBERT I CANT DO IT!"
then I just lay in the bed and stare at her ..
she was feeling so guilty,breathless and powerless
sitting beside me
then I just sat beside her
and put my arms around her neck
with my other hand rubbing her face
"Im okay . "
and I just open my pants and look at my knees while putting my arms around her neck
and there's a scar of it
it does painful
she sigh and said to me "Robert . Im really sorry."
then I put my jeans on again and smiled at her "Dont worry about this shit.. anyway this thing will make me could remember you either"
she keep feeling guilty about it
and stare at my knees even I already put my jeans on
then I told her again "It will be okay . this thing could heal by itself it's a scar!"
but her face still telling me that she is guilty very guilty 4 this .
then I decide to sing her a song
"Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me"
It's a You found me by the fray .
then she asked me"Why u sang me that song?"
"I.D.K It just sing in my head . So I sing it to you"
then I hold her hands
"Sweetheart . If im hurting now It doesnt matter anyway it proves that I'll sacrifes for you either .. But If you're hurting I swear I'll do everything to make it ok . even I have to die 4 it"
then I try to get up from the bed
and stand beside the bed
but it's fucking hurt
so I just fell to the bed
and then sarah come to me and said
"Robert?"
then I turn around and smile to sarah
and said
"Dont worry . Im ok"
then I grab my phone inside my pocket
and call Jack to come here because I probably hurting
so they come and knock the door
then sarah get off from the bed
and try to open the door
but I stopped her by saying
"Just stay here , sweetheart . I know you still feel nervous meeting does bastards , Just let me get it"
"But."
"No, but!!!Just stay!"
and I still try to stand up
even it does hurtful but
I have to open the door
and cover my hurt feeling to make sarah thought
that I am fine
So I walk ..
"FUCK IT , BITCH , DAMN , SHIT ! IT DOES FUCKNG HURT"I crumbled inside my heart
but I kept walking and opening the door
then when i opened the door
my friends seems shock because of my face
seems so pale
and dying
then when my friends look at me they face suddenly being weird
they step back actually
well I know they afraid
but not that much
then Jack asked
"R u Robert ?"
and i just whisper
"Come in!"
with my scary face
then they quickly come in
then ashley look at sarah and yell
"SARAHHHHH!!!!!!"
and hug her
"Finally !! We meet!!"
but I just standing here
closing the door
then Nikki go 2 me
"Rob , r u ok?"
then I just shook my head
then nikki asked again
"what happen?"
then I just call tom
"Tom!!"
then he come to me and I draggd him to the toilet and close it
then I just sit in the bathub
"FINALLY!"
I scream not hardly
just screamed
softly
then tom asked
"What happen?"
then I showed my legs ,
that was kinda had a scar and there's blood in it
then tom said
"Yo!Dude?! What's happening ? Is she a werewolves?!"
"Fuckey mouse! U such an Idiot! She's not a werewolves!she's a human!"
"then what's wrong with your leg?!"
"It's a long story pal. So can u just take an ache bandage or search it in this bathroom?!"
"Ay-ay captain!"
then he search it and found it
and my ache , wasnt soo hurt anymore .
it much better
then when I stand up .
it's ok .
the pain is fading .
then I go 2 sarah spot .
and sit beside her .
and says
"Hey ,, yaa . My love ."
and she just answer
"Hey"
Just a simple Hey .
Kinda a little bit offened about this .
because she seems dont care about my scar .
and forget it just like that
but , I know I told her .
Im alright but .
Ok .
It's fine .
My fault.
then she just touch my knees .
while talking to ashley and the others .
then when the others talk by themselves
she whispered to my ear saying
"Do that pain have gone , Rob?"
then I just smiled and kiss her cheek.
and say
"I thought you forget it . haha . Oh , well It's much better sweetheart ."
then she just blink to my eyes and continue talking with them .
and I just lean in her little shoulder .
and watch tv .
then . because im bored and the tv was suck either .
I took my ciggarette and smoking .
then she look at my ciggarette like she wanna try more.
then I gave my ciggarette to her lips
and she suck it .
and yea , then she smoke .
My angel turns to a bad girl when she suck it
My little girl grow!
yay!
lolololololol
then I just laughed
and she look at me weirdly ,
saying
"Why u laugh?!"
then I just smiled and said
"Nothing , just .. nothing ."
and when I wanna took my ciggarette she hold it
and dont want to return it to me
hahahaha
my angel turns into a bad girl
LOL
then I kissed her cheek .
saying
"You're cute , little girl"
then she smile
and ask
"Cute ? Fuck that cute."
and then she just finish the ciggarette
and done
she put it in the plastic of our food.
that has finished
ow, she is hot
then Jack give us a baileys .
she drink it too
I know that's ilegal
but .
It's fine .
she could try
but this time
it's a lot
until she's drunk
and you know what when she's drunk .
she fought with kstew
because that bitch wanna slammed her mobile
and when
I saw it I just kick kstew
and took the mobile and give it to sarah
because ksew is sucj=h a crazy
sarah didnt do anything
she wanna slammed her mobile
crazy bitch
then I grabbed her to go to the outside of the room
to the , pool
and sit at the side of the pool
share our stories there ..
E:Why you bring me here?
R:You're drunk.
E:So?
R:U need a fresh air to breathe
E:Ow, So if we drunk we have to go to the outside and breathe
R:Yes.
E:Ow, ok
R:So, let's share our stories .
E:Na, I dont wanna .
R:Why ?
E:I think I have told you all of my stories in the webcam .
R:Yea. You right .
E:(Laugh)
R:So , what now?
E:What about you sharing your stories?
R:Me? Oh well. there's nothing ,
E:Come on tell me about the twilight or the fans .
R:The fans . n' the twilight . ok . I'll do my best to remind it
E:Why you do your best?
R:Because Im blank with you here
E:Why?
R:You make me blank , . Really I dont know all I focus is your face
E:U do bullshits again , dont ya?
R:Why should I?I never did bullshits anyway .they're stink just like the name
E:You know why I always said it's a bullshit?
R:why?
E:Because your words are like knives , they peel my skins and pierce my soul.You're body will burn tonight, but your heart will still remains cold. And I will blame myself.
R:Why you should blame yourself?
E:Because , there's something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself , and smething in your voice makes my heart beat fast .
R:Do it beats now?
E:Soo hard .
R:Can I hear it?
E:No!
R:LOL(laugh)
E:(playing with the water)
R:.......................................................
I forgot what I said in the end
after that I teach sarah how to swim
She's so wet and me too
my pain is really hurting
but I dont care
I teaching my girl how to swim
I could forget my pain
that still lingers in my body
We kissed whille I was teaching her .
We didnt drawn .
because I keep swinging my foot .
and then she pulled away softly and saying
"I rather this kiss than last time"
and because she said so.
I kissed her again .
then ..
after that
I carry her to the nearest
seat in the pool side and
lay her there
then we lay there
together
and here's the conversation
E:Show me how you do that trick.
R:The one that makes you scream?
E:Yes.
R:Or the one that makes you laugh?
E:Both .
R:(I threw my arms around her neck)
E:Show me how you do it .
R:and ?
E:I promise that I'll run away with you
R:Ok, it' easy just .(Laugh) R u kidding me?!
E:Yea . haha .
R:Where did you got those words?
E:Idk , It's just crossed in my brain .So, I said it to u
R:(Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head and dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow)
E:Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you ?
R:I know that you love me . I know that you just cover those all by just being cruel to me.
E:You, soft and only . you
R:(I touch her hand)You,lost and lonely and strange as angels.
E:You're just like a dream . I dont even believe that this was real.
R:I know it's hard to believe that this was real . But it was happening.(I saw her freezing because of she just got out from the pool wet and the air was cold either then I kissed her forehead then she move more closer to me)Cold?
E:(nugging)
and then I carried her
to our room
and when we arrived in the room .
we saw soo many dead peoples .
LOL
Not real dead peoples.
they're just passed out .
and who opened the door is only one man who could stay alive
haha
Jackson . hehe
he wasnt drank too much beer
so he could stay alive .
and then I put her
in the bed .
and she just lay there .
while looking me moving those dead mans to their rooms
with Jackson .
after that .
The room's clean and then I jump to the bed and
lean closer to her
and smile
then she just touch my face
and said "You're real"
and I smile soo big .
and move my face more closer to hers .
"Of course."
then now our face was touching each other .
(let me just write it like a dialog because it's easier)
E:Look Im sorry for the way I acted.
R:It' ok , I still love you
E:I love you too.
R:I wanna love you forever.
E:I dont .
ER:(Laugh)
R:Ok . haha .
E:What time is it?
R: (I forgot what I said)
E:Ow , Ok .
R:I don't want this moment to ever end
E:Me too .
R:We need each other do we?
E:Yes.
R:Im not gonna let you go away from me.
E:Ok.
R:(kiss elle's lips)I Need You , like you are a star.
E:Im not a star . but you are.
R:Im a star in the fuck life . but you are a star in a wonderful life.
E:(slap my face)
R:Hey!
ER:(laugh)
R:You changed my live oh soo patiently And turned it into something good and real
E:I think you're the one that was like that to me
R:Why?
E:Because I feel just like I felt in all my dreams.
R:Really?
E:Yea.
R:Same as me then.
E:There are questions hard to answer to u
R:What are they?
E:Um , Why you love me?
R:only that?
E:Nope. There's more but u have to answer this 1st .
R:Ok , Um . Because I love your soul.that's soo kind , and you're my type .
E:Why you loving me like no other?
R:Because,blablabla(I forgot)
E:Why you have those perfect face?
R:Idk.
E:Now the very hard question.
R:Will u promise me that you'll be loving me for the rest of your existence?
E:What?!
R:Will you?
E:I supposed to ask you question!
R:(laugh)
E:Not you!(laugh)
R:Sorry (laugh)
E:Ok , now can I continue my question?
R:Yea (laugh)
E:I love your smile .
R:thank you
E:they're ow , so . Dazzling .
R:thanks
E:I love it
R:Do u still want to continue your question?
E:I think nope.
ER:(kissing)
I could remember this kissing things is 2 minutes
Elle was crying this time .
saying
"I would never ever wanna lose you"
and I just rubbed her face softly .
"Dont cry , because I wont let anyone have you . You are mine always ."
"I need you" she whispered softly .
and pull her lips again softly and let go softly
"I need you too ."
I kiss her sweet lips slowly and softly.
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